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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Anonymous on May 18, 2005, 09:39:00 AM
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Hypothetically...if one has decided that there is no longer a place in life and cannot find work anywhere..approx how many xanax would it take to kill an 160 pound human being? Is xanax alone toxic enough?
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you can pick up a shotgun and shells are walmart for cheap. less risk of waking up.
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Or shoot up enough coke to stop your heart. Not sure how much that would require.
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On 2005-05-18 06:39:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Hypothetically...if one has decided that there is no longer a place in life and cannot find work anywhere..approx how many xanax would it take to kill an 160 pound human being? Is xanax alone toxic enough?"
your words do not go into a vacuum, they go into people's hearts. :cry:
please pm me or call me or call someone else. i and other people have and will stay up on the phone late and talk.
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Im felon and cant buy a gun..I have no cash and no job and find no joy in life. Talk is shit.
So how many xanax? I can get those on credit
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Im fucking a dead weight on my loved ones..When I woke up this morning I screamed "FUCK!"
I am praying for a psycho to blow my head off.
Fuck god..Fuck god....Fuck god...Fuck god! Fuck this fucking world!
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I'd start running... and never stop.
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never mind smoked a joint and took a xanax and feel better.someone needs to hire my fucking sorry ass.
Im actually a good worker...just need a chance.
Why the fuck did I quit heroin if Im never gonna break back into society?
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Oh c'mon, man! You know this will pass. Suicide would hurt your loved ones a whole bitch of a lot more than having a couch potato around. Besides, you probably don't know how loved you are. Even when a total asshole who everyone hates dies, after they're gone, you sort of miss them.
Yeah run, for a time. Just go for a change of scene. I'm for truth, no matter who tells it. I'm for justice, no matter who it is for or against. I'm a human being first and foremost, and as such I am for whoever and whatever benefits humanity as a whole
--Malcolm X
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On 2005-05-18 07:49:00, Anonymous wrote:
"never mind smoked a joint and took a xanax and feel better.someone needs to hire my fucking sorry ass.
Im actually a good worker...just need a chance.
Why the fuck did I quit heroin if Im never gonna break back into society? "
Hang in there Lynch, you just havin a bad day we all do. Things will turn around some how you just have to believe it.
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You are now in the metroplex, bro. There are opportunities out there. If there are positions galore for minorities and those that are not even documented in this country, there are opportunities for you. Tat's or not, felonies or not, there is work out there, you are a white male on a mission. I wish you the best.
Project Rio? Registered with TWC? Applied at temp agencies?
You could have died numerous times on smack, don't buy the fucking farm now that you have kicked...
If all else fails, dial 211 and ask for assistance. We have that number here in Texas that few know about.
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Xanax (or other benzodiazapenes) won't do it by itself, but it does potentiate narcotics or methadone, that's a pretty sure way to check out, and painless, too. Just 'cause you asked.
Seriously, dude, you're just chemically depressed from abusing the gak right after coming off the 'done, which will depress you in and of itself. The mood-creating part of your brain ain't firing on all eight cylinders right now. Give it some time. Get some good food in you, try to rest, smoke weed, and stay off the hard shit for a while. Try taking vitamin supplements and eating regularly. If the depression keeps up after a few weeks, then make other plans. Suicide's not a decision to be taken lightly--I think you should give yourself at least 90 days to think about it first. Mine has been postponed indefinitely for a while......
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On 2005-05-18 07:49:00, Anonymous wrote:
Why the fuck did I quit heroin if Im never gonna break back into society? "
I wonder sometimes myself. I definitely had more hustle when I was using regularly. I'm just chippin' a little bit nowadays, for the first time in years, and it gives me the only joy I've had in weeks. I don't want a habit again, but whatthefuck? Weed and booze haven't been doing it for me lately, everything seems gray all the time, but when I get that sweet rush, I know I'll feel better for a few hours. I know it's fucked up, and the place I'm copping my dope from will run out soon anyway, but goddamn---I must be fucked up when IV drug use is the high point of my week.....
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I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You're strong, I'm weary
I'm holding on
But I feel like giving in
But still You're with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
I know I'm broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I have never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said You'd see me through the storm
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
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Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil cause I'm the evilest, meanest bitch in the whole damned range. ::bwahaha2::
Man will never be free until the last king is strangled with the entrails of the last priest.
--Denis Diderot, French encyclopedist
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On 2005-05-18 16:54:00, Antigen wrote:
"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil cause I'm the evilest, meanest bitch in the whole damned range. ::bwahaha2:: Man will never be free until the last king is strangled with the entrails of the last priest.
--Denis Diderot, French encyclopedist
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hehe
:nworthy:
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On 2005-05-18 07:08:00, fka wrote:
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On 2005-05-18 06:39:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Hypothetically...if one has decided that there is no longer a place in life and cannot find work anywhere..approx how many xanax would it take to kill an 160 pound human being? Is xanax alone toxic enough?"
your words do not go into a vacuum, they go into people's hearts. :cry:
BELIVE ME, I KNOW
:cry: :cry: :cry:
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yah fuck suicide ..was bad day tho
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Before any of us check out to the other side we must be sure everything has been experienced or done in this life. The very fact your still here is evidence enough your not done yet. If reincarnation is true (Won't know one way or the other until passage across Styxx)It sure would suck to have to return and start this "phase" over,poor word choice! Thinking in these terms might help even when your feeling like crap!
As the saying goes If you didn't have some bad days you wouldn't appreciate as much the days that are good.
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On 2005-05-19 01:11:00, Anonymous wrote:
"yah fuck suicide ..was bad day tho"
Glad to see that you lived through it!
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On 2005-05-18 15:54:00, Anonymous wrote:
"I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You're strong, I'm weary
I'm holding on
But I feel like giving in
But still You're with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
I know I'm broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I have never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said You'd see me through the storm
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
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Now I do wanna kill myself......
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On 2005-05-19 09:10:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-18 15:54:00, Anonymous wrote:
"I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You're strong, I'm weary
I'm holding on
But I feel like giving in
But still You're with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
I know I'm broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I have never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said You'd see me through the storm
And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
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Now I do wanna kill myself......"
Hey thanks for including those words in your quote. They ARE WORTH repeating a few times!
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I'm having gay sex with Jesus right now. He'd say "Hi!" to you, but his mouth is full......
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No shit. Part of the problem I have with this world is that is seems to be filled with christloving buffoons. Hey GodSquad, if you're so sure you're going to Heaven, why don't you kill yourself? Seriously, Jesus will forgive you......
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On 2005-05-19 07:14:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Before any of us check out to the other side we must be sure everything has been experienced or done in this life. The very fact your still here is evidence enough your not done yet.
The fact that I've been smoking dope and no winged elephants have been coming around indicates that weed smoking keeps winged elephants away, huh?
As the saying goes If you didn't have some bad days you wouldn't appreciate as much the days that are good."
And if I didn't have a needle, I wouldn't appreciate my spoon as much as I do.
Cut the new age jive. You guys are almost as bad as the Xtians.
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To start off my words are probably going to hit a bunch of deaf ears, but I was in the same place 16 months ago and tried killing myself with pills....Needless to say it didn't work. I was depressed and wanted the pain of living just to stop. The next day when I came to I even felt worse, on top of feeling like shit from the botched suicide attempt my problems were still there. At first it seemed like a nightmare trying to kick a habit on top of everything else. Today things are just ok. I can deal with them. Like what others have said hang in there because the feeling does pass and things do get better.
No drug, not even alcohol, causes the fundamental ills of society. If we're looking for the sources of our troubles, we shouldn't test people for drugs, we should test them for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power.
P. J. O'Rourke
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Do you know anything about post-withdrawal depression? I've been off junk for over two years, chipped a little here and there in the last two weeks or so. I've been depressed pretty much since I got off junk two years ago.
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yah PAWS is what Im going thru. Cutting all hard dope out of my life...no more
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All I know is somedays I feel depressed and when I decided to kick the shit the stuff they gave me made me feel crazier than I was when I was on dope. I know about white knuckle abstinence after the detox, and I know it took me a while before I felt halfway human again. But againg good days and bad days. Hang in there.
I would rather be exposed to the inconveniencies attending too much
liberty than to those attending too small a degree of it.
--Thomas Jefferson, 1791, in a letter to Archibald Stuart
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On 2005-05-19 11:22:00, DOC SLOW wrote:
But againg good days and bad days. Hang in there.
What's the point? It's been two years and I'm still depressed most of the time.
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On 2005-05-19 11:50:00, Anonymous wrote:
"but you haven't been that way ALL the time. There have been a few times (albeit few) that things HAVE looked up. It is possible for that to happen again and maybe have it last a little longer.
I was wearing the proverbial "rose colored glasses" during those times. Now that I see how things really are, I know it's all bullshit.
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On 2005-05-19 11:50:00, Anonymous wrote:
If I have to come up there and smack the shit out of you I will!!!!!!!!!! :grin: :grin: :grin: "
You'll come up here with some smack and shoot the shit with me? COOL!
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On 2005-05-19 09:38:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 09:30:00, Anonymous wrote:
Hey thanks for including those words in your quote. They ARE WORTH repeating a few times!"
Take your fucking fairy tales and imaginary man in the clouds back to lala land you idiot! Still believe in Santa too? :grin:
I gotta say if I was feeling the way the original poster was and someone came at me with this kind of mind numbing bullshit it would piss me the fuck off."
Wow. How very sad you are so void spiritually, and full of so much rage. I am SO thankful for what I have and the blessings in my life. I'm not pushing anything on anyone. I just know the awesome things that have hapened in my life, and know where credit is due. I like to share that.
No need to be hostile over a post.
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On 2005-05-19 11:57:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 11:50:00, Anonymous wrote:
If I have to come up there and smack the shit out of you I will!!!!!!!!!! :grin: :grin: :grin: "
You'll come up here with some smack and shoot the shit with me? COOL!"
There ya go - there's some solid advice. (shaking head). This is why the poor soul is a mess in the first place...empty, temporary "fixes".
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I've got it all, but I feel so deprived,
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside,
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing.
And why can't I let it go?
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more.
(Than wanting more)
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door.
Onto the next thing, I'm search-ing for something that's missing.
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why'm I feelin' like there's something I missed?
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cause the more that I'm... (More that I'm)
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure...
there's gotta be more to life...
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SICKO!!!!!!!
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On 2005-05-19 19:29:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 09:38:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 09:30:00, Anonymous wrote:
Hey thanks for including those words in your quote. They ARE WORTH repeating a few times!"
Take your fucking fairy tales and imaginary man in the clouds back to lala land you idiot! Still believe in Santa too? :smokin:
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Drop a few hits of acid and perhaps you will see winged elephants!
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On 2005-05-19 19:34:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 11:57:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 11:50:00, Anonymous wrote:
If I have to come up there and smack the shit out of you I will!!!!!!!!!! :grin: :grin: :grin: "
You'll come up here with some smack and shoot the shit with me? COOL!"
There ya go - there's some solid advice. (shaking head). This is why the poor soul is a mess in the first place...empty, temporary "fixes"."
i told Satan that you suck. he says the devil God stole your soul and now you have nothing but God's hatred in you and it spews out like a stench bomb whenever you open your mouth. i'm telling you, you have picked an arrogant god and now he speaks through you. maybe you could get an excorcism!
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If I ran all this shit in my head I would be fucking depressed too! What a waste of time..
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One thing I found to help a little in the past when I was depressed was St. Johns Wort. It is suppposed to have natural serotonin in it to replace all that was used up when I used to do alot of coke/meth.
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uh, before anyone offs themself, i have a list of certain...tasks, shall we say, best carried out by someone in your predicament. to put it delicately, -- well, perhaps it is best if we corresponded by private message.
regrets, i got Satan in me.
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Suicide is for quitters.
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On 2005-05-20 07:05:00, Anonymous wrote:
"uh, before anyone offs themself, i have a list of certain...tasks, shall we say, best carried out by someone in your predicament. to put it delicately, -- well, perhaps it is best if we corresponded by private message.
regrets, i got Satan in me."
just trying to cheer you up. :grin: :wink:
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JESUS SLAVES!!!!!!!
:grin:
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What on earth does this have to do with someone contemplating suicide!!
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Jesus is for quitters.
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Quiting is for quitters.
What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult.
-- Sigmund Freud
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The End
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FYI FKA,
Satan happens to be a direct by-product of God...seeing as is you cant have one without the other. Hence support of Satan, is in effect support of Christianity.
Doesnt mean he aint a happenin dude....but he is, by default, part of the God Squad.
Just thought I would share.
On 2005-05-19 19:56:00, fka wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 19:29:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 09:38:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-19 09:30:00, Anonymous wrote:
Hey thanks for including those words in your quote. They ARE WORTH repeating a few times!"
Take your fucking fairy tales and imaginary man in the clouds back to lala land you idiot! Still believe in Santa too? :smokin: "
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St. John's Wort = Hypericum Perforatum
http://www.stevenfoster.com/education/m ... ricum.html (http://www.stevenfoster.com/education/monograph/hypericum.html)
I dunno whether it works like an SSI or whether it actually provides seratonin or if it's something else entirely. All I know is that tea made from fresh herb works best, homemade tincture is almost as good, commercial tincture is next (though tastes like shit due to the cheap ass alcohol they use) and the dried herb pills and commercial tea are completely worthless!
They just started sprayng weed killer around my town, so I have to find another stand of the shit if I'm gonna have fresh herb tea or homemade tincture this year. I can't say how it works for depression, but I've had very good luck w/ using it for accute anxiety attacks.
No laws, however stringent, can make the idle industrious, the thriftless provident, or the drunken sober
--Samuel Stiles
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On 2005-05-20 10:30:00, Carmel wrote:
"FYI FKA,
Satan happens to be a direct by-product of God...seeing as is you cant have one without the other. Hence support of Satan, is in effect support of Christianity.
Doesnt mean he aint a happenin dude....but he is, by default, part of the God Squad.
Just thought I would share.
Not true. Satan, Set, Sutek, Shaitan, etc. actually predate the Yahweh cult and it's derivatives. The GodSquad like to slander it because it brings knowledge to those that are willing to seek it's council, and gnosis is the one thing the followers of the Slave Gods can't stand. Well, that and fun. Truth be told, "Satan" (which is Hebrew for 'the Adversary') is really a group of reptillian aliens that have been at war with the GodSquad and their ilk (also aliens) for millenia. Their 'crime', in the eyes of the Godsters, was imparting knowledge and wisdom to primitive humans, thereby emancipating them from the mental slavery perpetuated by the "high holies". The GodSquad twisted this happy occasion into the myth of Eve and the Serpent, again slandering our allies, the Satanic aliens. For more information, check this out:
http://fornits.com/wwf/viewtopic.php?mo ... t=20&Sort= (http://fornits.com/wwf/viewtopic.php?mode=viewtopic&topic=9182&forum=7&start=20&Sort=)
Scroll down to the "Know Your Aliens" post.
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me & Carmel, well, it's kinda like Seinfeld and Newman...
hello, Carmel... ::hehehmm::
:wave:
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i think i should be blushing but i'm flipping through my dictionary to find out...
hmmnn... my dictionary says a gnostic would believe that matter is evil. i think i believe the opposite. the closer i get to the facts of the planet, the better i feel. survival, that sort of thing. unfortunately my forebears ducked from the trials of survival so now i have to relearn it. i think i am too turned on by atavism to be a gnostic. however, you might find me otherwise when stoned. ignore her, she's a nightmare hippy girl... :wink:
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When I met him on a sidewalk
He was preaching to a mailbox
Down on 16th Avenue
And he told me he was Jesus
Sent from Jupiter to free us
With a bottle of tequila and one shoe
He raged about repentance
He finished every sentence
With a promise that the end was close at hand
I didn't even try to understand
He left me wide eyed in disbelief and disillusion
I was tongue tied, drawn by my conclusions
So I turned and walked away
And laughed at what he had to say
Then casually dismissed him as a fraud
I forgot he was created in the image of my God
When I met her in a bookstore
She was browsing on the first floor
Through a yoga magazine
And she told me in her past life
She was some plantation slave's wife
She had to figure out what that might mean
She believes the healing powers of her crystals
Can bring balance and new purpose to her life
Sounds nice
She left me wide eyed in disbelief and disillusion
I was tongue tied, drawn by my conclusions
So I turned and walked away
And laughed at what she had to say
Then casually dismissed her as a fraud
I forgot she was created in the image of my God
Not so long ago, a man from Galilee
Fed thousands with His bread and His theology
And the truth He spoke
Quickly became the joke
Of educated, self-inflated Pharisees like me
And they were wide eyed in disbelief and disillusion
They were tongue tied, drawn by their conclusions
Would I have turned and walked away
And laughed at what He had to say
And casually dismissed Him as a fraud
Unaware that I was staring at the image of my God
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According to the last Vril Gesellschaft prophecy made in 1945 the Vril will be getting here by 2004-5. It is now mid way through 2005,still waiting..........
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If I had a bar, I'd give bogo drinks to anyone named Jesus. Then I could advertise truthfully "Jesus Saves!"
The nature of psychological compulsion is such that those who act under constraint remain under the impression that they are acting on their own initiative. The victim of mind-manipulation does not know that he is a victim. To him the walls of his prison are invisible, and he believes himself to be free. That he is not free is apparent only to other people. His servitude is strictly objective.
--Brave New World Revisited, Aldous Huxley, 1958
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Actually, that story (or song, or poem) was very interesting. Where did it come from?