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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Therion on January 25, 2004, 11:28:00 AM
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Hey guys I thought Id start a check in thread for all of us. So you can let people know how/what you are up to..and see how everyone else is..it doesnt have to be weekly either..if you have good shit happening let us know...bad shit too. Anything goes, but it has to pertain to you
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-25 08:33 ]
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Sunday...Had a bad week but thanks to a few very special people in my life (you know who you are ) :wave: I feel alot better..I have some goals I want to take care of...but wont list them just yet..
I learned that even though you may feel all alone, sometimes theres people that care and you may not even know it :wave: :wave:
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Dammit 12 looks and no posts...Cmon guys what ya been up to? Humor me, I live in small town and have no life hehe..
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OK...I have just moved to a small town myself and my hubby finally moved the iguana (his pet NOT mine) here. he got home so late last night he waited to put together his cage..(it is huge) so he decided it would be ok just to close her up in the master bathroom... I woke up at 7:00 am to this 4 foot monster sitting on my chest Just looking at me and sticking out her tounge :eek: Talk about a rude awakening... the thing just looks at me and tilts its head to the side needless to say my hubby and kids got a long laugh to start the day out!!!
How it got out I have no idea and my hubby had to go finish a job because we are supposed to get a shitload of snow tonight so right now my bathroom door is barricaded shut!
Diane
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I hope this stays on thread Brad because I think it is a great idea. My week has not been one I will be putting down to remember. My heart hurts right now. I know that it is part of the risk that comes with trying relationships but disappointment and rejection hurt regardless of how many times it happens or how old I get and this one is no different. Well, actually maybe a little different, it just had been going so well and the curve ball he threw me was so unexpected that it has knocked me over for a minute. I will survive, I always do but it is unreal to me how quicky that old Straight crap comes up. I instantly heard those confrontations of what a fat, unlovable bitch I was and bammm...instantly, it is my fault even though it is not. So just trying to do my best and be the best I can be even if I am hurting because I know it is so minor in comparasion to so many. Thanks for letting me say that, I always feel guilty for being sad when we have a war going on, so many people dying every day, here and abroad. Does anyone else ever feel selfish feeling sad for themselves knowing the suffering others have that is so much worse? I do and then it builds up and puts me in a mini tail spin for a while. Ignore me, I am just having a sad weekend.
JNL
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I know how ya feel..but, you will find someone better, and youll realize that your breakup was for the better. Too many people stay together for the wrong reasons.
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-26 02:08 ]
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-27 22:12 ]
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Hey Therion, I don't know why you would really want to bring this on yourself.....but I will tell you how I am doing
I am bitchy!
cranky moody grumpy, Not that much of a departure from my normal routine but eh :wink:
I have Math today. My only class needed to graduate. I kept putting it off because I am really dumb in math. I hate it. 50 minutes and I want to poke my eyes out with the pencil.
I don't need to know how to find the roots of radicals. I am a radical!
Other then that, things are going ok. Working out, my son is happy, haven't had a cig. All is decent. The "rents" are still alive and kickin God forgive me. Next the statesmen will invent cheap lies, putting the blame upon the nation that is attacked, and every man will be glad of those conscience-soothing falsities, and will diligently study them, and refuse to examine any refutations of them; and thus he will by and by convince himself that the war is just, and will thank God for the better sleep he enjoys after this process of grotesque self-deception."
Mark Twain, The Mysterious Stranger, 1916, Ch.9
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Week is starting off slowly. Mondays used to be my best day. Now...? At times things seem to go great; excitement for today and the future. Sometimes, it slows down to the point of being painful.
Overall, I am doing well. Out of Straight now for almost 24 years. Usually, it seems like a bad dream it was so long ago. Other times it seems like it was yesterday.
No name yet to be posted
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lala~ nevah mind
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Hey,keep your chin up. I find that for myself, things kind of ebb and flow. When I feel really bad, I try and concentrate on the minute. It helps because it stops me from looking at what I would call "big picture" things. I can get into the moment and put my entire attention on the task at hand at that moment.
If all else fails, then self medication usually takes care of it.
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Therion,
I read your post and just wanted to say that the past is the past. If you need to unburden, call a friend and get it out. On the odd chance you would like to chat, you can email me at exsafecounselor@yahoo.com
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Ha! Go away!!!!
no one needs your
HELP
fuck off!History gives us a kind of chart, and we dare not surrender even a small rushlight in the darkness. The hasty reformer who does not remember the past will find himself condemned to repeat it.
--John Buchan
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Sweet Brad,
I am sorry you are having such an icky day. Maybe you do need to sleep, rest. You know, as we have talked about, my struggles with mania and many times the best I can do is get rest. Thinking too much wears me out and leads me down roads I have no business on. Karma, my dear, you have had yours, and your road is full of days that will be filled things you cannot see right now. Just believe me on that right now. This is a friend who will believe in you when you do not believe in yourself. Please try to rest. Hang in there sweet friend.
jen
[ This Message was edited by: jnloar on 2004-01-27 10:51 ]
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a disappointing week myself... *siiigh*
If there's a worse idea going than locking people up for drug use, it's probably locking them up in close proximity to some tyranical altruist who wants to 'help' them with a problem that probably doesn't exist
-- Ginger Warbis
having had about all the help I can stand!
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On 2004-01-27 06:03:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Hey,keep your chin up. I find that for myself, things kind of ebb and flow. When I feel really bad, I try and concentrate on the minute. It helps because it stops me from looking at what I would call "big picture" things. I can get into the moment and put my entire attention on the task at hand at that moment.
If all else fails, then self medication usually takes care of it. "
Dont think self medicating is good for me.
Mabey I just worry too much...
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-27 11:38 ]
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-27 22:13 ]
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On 2004-01-27 08:23:00, exsafecounselor wrote:
"Therion,
I read your post and just wanted to say that the past is the past. If you need to unburden, call a friend and get it out. On the odd chance you would like to chat, you can email me at exsafecounselor@yahoo.com
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Thanks but your programs advice is what get me in this mindframe in the first place
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I have really gotten lots out of this site since I found it a couple of days ago.
By the way, names Lynette, live in Michigan. Went to Straight Cincinnati in 84 or 85 and then came to Plymouth, Mi when the building opened.
Funny, NOT ONCE have I seen anything good about Straight. I am so glad no other kids will have to go through the same shit I did....I hope!
Started telling my hubby about it just today. He is shocked and appalled. He called from work and said he feels so bad about what I went through all those years ago. He is such a sweetie! :grin:
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Therion, after I left your house this morning I ::puke:: in some parking lot downtown. I think I left Robert Wills death row pamplet at your house. Call me if I did, it's the only one I had. I was planning to make copies of it.
I am at the library tring to download modems, drivers and devices so I can get internet at home again. I never knew upgrading would be such a pain.
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yah dude you gotta do that shit in order..
you did leave the death row infos..
glad you didnt puke on my floor
you were pretty drunk so I thought Id let ya pass out in the recliner and not go to jail and shit
Glad I had to go get methadone at 6 am cuz I hate people puking in my room man..only I do that
Alcohol is such a shit drug ...it really is...its fucking super toxic. I always think about battery acid going through my blood when I drink. On some rare occasions I will drink. So if ya ever see me drinking ...better take a picture :silly:
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-29 01:35 ]
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-01 13:34 ]
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One's own Kingman, Christ person, Woman God.
At battle with a mass astrengent. The bond
That blends the weak to the wise.
It's a safe assumption that you'd want
to save me now. But I'll never face castration.
For your sacred sow is left slaughtered.
Brainwashed by me. Myself influence I. Bird brained
World saver. A fake god rests dead inside you.
It's a safe assumption that you'd want to save me now.
But I'll never face castration. For your sacred sow is left
Slaughtered.
System destroyed. Exposed and unployed. The fruit
Of intention cry for their dead, but turning their head to
Ignore reality's claw. Knife to your wrist, syringe in your
Arm is your ounce of prevention. Give what you made,
And under your name on your grave, is salvation. A big
Fucking joke.
Slaughter the pig, the self rightous king for your own
Restoration. For your God is in your chest, and faith kills
What is precious, for death is unanswered.
Do sin.
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Glad you found the site. I found fornits about 3 years ago; typed "striaght, inc" into google and was blown away with what I saw and read. Finding all this has also helped my wife understand me better.
Straight Surivior
St. Pete '78 - '80
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Pour the gasoline
Burn the fucker clean
Tell me whod she coo
I want her
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::kiss:: ::kiss:: ::kiss:: ::kiss::
Rumors are spreading all over my town
But it?s just stones and sticks,
Upon the microphone is where I go to get my fix
Just let the lovin? take a hold cuz it will if you let it
I?m funky not a junkie but I know where to get it
No trouble no fuss I know why
::kiss:: ::kiss:: ::kiss:: ::kiss::
AND IF YA DONT KNOW.....I AINT TELLING :wave:
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-30 03:10 ]
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::cheers::
Drug War tells us everyone's body is common property
to be managed by the central government for our own
good, even if it kills us. This is Communism!
Drug Policy Foundation of Texas
--Bob Ramsey
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Sorry it's been a while since I posted here. Working lots of hours at work. Can't wait for my tax returns. Have a good weekend.
Don
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Hiya Don...long time no type...
Glad you are ok..
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/Bump
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My husband signed on a house I don't want to live with him (or his goddamned sister) in. He feels this will work itself out. I turned in all the paperwork for my fucking "carte de sejour" so I can stay in France, where I don't want to be. I found out my ex-boyfriend got married. Even though I myself have gotten married and had 2 kids since we broke up, I am jealous. Huh.
I did all things child-care related because apparently this is the woman's role. Yeah, I really don't see this marriage lasting. My son is teething and very clingy and nursing around the clock. I feel very guilty any time I get impatient. I want him to grow up intrinsically knowing that his feelings are important. I want him to take for granted having his body and emotions respected, so that he doesn't even bother hanging out with people who don't. I want inner peace and a feeling of general well being to be his norm. All my energy is going into him, and he is worth it, and the smiles and hugs and joy I get are a great payback, but...I am tired.
Wow that felt really good. Great idea, Therion.
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Hey No name yet posted,
Was wondering if you are a guy or girl?? I was in and out of straight 24 yrs ago this year. I'm a girl, could we know eachother??
My life is going good. Will be moving back to sunny Fla in May, can't wait!!!
Therion, good answer to that excouncilor guy. Don't need anymore of his brainwashing shit!
tina 3/80-6/80 St Pete
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[ This Message was edited by: taureana on 2004-03-19 07:04 ]
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Hello anon. I was in 78 - 80. email me at kpickle39@aol.com
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Muhaha I am doing better..Plans are crystalizing..
I guess for years I have just kind of been..I dont know...like waiting for someting to happen..Sometimes I do wierd things like drive extra shitty with no seat belt on..
I am just...after about 13years realizing..That my issues arent really what I thought they were..
I feel like Im getting to the roots of my mind..and everything is starting to make more sense..and I am realizing that alot of things were set into motion for me..without my consent nor understanding..
I always thought I was just a fuck up...oh I am too..BUT Im not a fuckup for the sake of being a fuckup..
I have uncovered family issues..Straight issues..I am starting to understand why I do what I do...and what my motivations really are.
Its all coming full circle now...
And I think I have the answer...And this is the big one..Im either gonna push through or lose it for good..Im sorry I am so vague but it would take me 50 paragraphs to explain..
Hang in there guys and gals..Theres always a spot of light somewhere...find it..Must look past 10 feet in front of you..or you will trip..