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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => The Troubled Teen Industry => Topic started by: Anonymous on December 06, 2006, 12:51:43 AM
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I know there is a hot debate over whether AA/NA is a program, blah blah blah. Well when you are a child sitting aorund listening to a bunch of scary looking adults telling you the horrors of drugs it very much becomes a program.
I am wondering if there are any other kids of AA families out there? My parents broke up and my mom was a total alcoholic and left, and then my dad got really into AA even though he didnt drink alot. I talked to my mom recently and she tells me he enjoyed because of its cult like atmosphere, and he could serve his twisted personality needs and pretend he was helping people by being a sponsor and everything. It was an interesting conversation to have. He always told us kids that it was him that was an alcoholic, and that is why he went to AA. My mom told me he never drank a lot, not like her anyways, and that he went along for a meeting with her reluctantly and just started going on his own after that. It was a very weird part of my childhood as weird as that sounds. We were always going to AA picnics and all his friends were from AA and their bible was the big book. They would sit around ina circle and talk about the small coincidences about placement of words and other strange things about the big book, it reminded me of superstition and religion. They have the same group confession attitude. But then again its voluntary. I found it strange that my dad would bring me though. He would even take me every year to the yearly conferences, and the strange thing is there were lots of kids there! There were speical round the clock meetings, for kids. I never went and felt very uncomfortable around this as a youngster and teenager. The other strange thing is that you are more popular within the group the more fucked up you were on drugs before you came in, the more desperate you were the more attention you would get. Very program like, and it teaches kids they will only get that love and atention from their friends so long as they a. live a fucked up life for a while b. go to meeitngs all the time and drink anyways and lie about it to get chips and feel guilty. It was like I was trained to think I was an alcoholic by birth sincea young age. So I did what any well trained boy would do, I skipped alcohol and went straight to drugs. i still dont drink, it makes me sick, and what I dont doubt the power of influence and brainwashing anymore.
Anybody else have weird experiences with AA parents or something like that?
I totally forgot about this part of my life until today. My dad was weird.