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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Powerful Attitude on March 29, 2003, 04:08:00 AM
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I had a total of about 6 months first phase. I got to second phase and was set back within a week. About two weeks later, I was back on second and set back again. I was amazed that I made it to third, only to get set back (or a refresher), I can?t remember. I watched people come in later and move way ahead. Boy, that pissed me off. I think I?m still pissed off? Anyway, somehow I made it to fourth. I lasted a good while until my host brother and friend went to the beach for a day of ?no talking behind backs? ?friendship?. We returned to pick our newcomers up about 7:00 pm. As we entered, we all three looked at each other in bewilderment, amazement and confusion. Everybody was lined up, ready to leave and had been waiting on us. And there was no sign of our ?Oldcomer Permission Request? slip. Ain?t that a bitch. We had been in the sun all day fishing and swimming and roaming the beaches, feeling free from the grips of the beast. We were all immediately accused of being high. All three of us were grabbed by the belt loop and taken away by staff to do the squat search ceremony and piss test. We were all completely sober and hadn?t even had a cigarette or communicated with anyone on the outside. My host brother and I were immediately split apart, and I was again on a no responsibility pending the next day?s outcome? the next day?s nightmare. I was stood up the next day and confronted for something I can?t remember right now. Mind you I was still on fourth phase when I was told I was going to be placed back to third. The staff member had set me back two other times, and I was sick of his sh-t. So I let him know. And the whole f?king group exploded. I was ready for him this time. They started doing the usual, what would you call it ?therapy?? ::bigmouth:: As they got in my face, I stood nose to nose with them, taking it all but not giving them an inch. ::bangin::
Oh well, I still say ?F?k ?em.? I was set back repeatedly for ?Powerful Attitude?, and you know what? F?K ?EM! I was still set back a few more times, all in the name of ?Powerful Attitude?.
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I always like that because of the grammatical play on words--"a bush" meaning you are one of the bushes hehe clever.
Chinrse is a short version of ChinaRose which was really the screen name i have used in some way shape or form since i have been on the internet.
The 157 was added because i was really pissed the night i finally signed in under anything other than anon. I really felt like taking a gun and shooting something. But now i wish i could drop that is there any way to?
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J. David is my official, government recognized and enforced slave name.
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major fan of "Hedwig and the Angry Inch"
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My name stems from my being on first phase for 98
days. After reviewing my old M.I.'s I came to the conclusion that I was a jerk for 85 of those 98 days. This roughly translates that if staff
would have just accepted me the way I signed myself into the program willingly at first, instead of trying to rip off my parents with a bullshit court ordered program, that I would have made home in the 14 days as stated in the bochure that I had read while still a druggie.
They however, chose not to, and hence 85 days of my life were spent making them wish they had chosen a different course of thinking following my intake. In a way I am grateful for the greedy decision that they made, for being a jerk carried it's own blessings. I was able to see the program from what it really was and lash out against what I felt was not right. I was never really abused, because I was to smart and too tough to let it happen to me. I simply sat back and observed, and once I had had enough, I did the steps necessary to make it through, and eventually out of that hell-hole plain and simple.
[ This Message was edited by: 85 Day Jerk on 2003-03-29 23:57 ]
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Well, I was having a hard time reflecting upon my life when I found the board, and thought I should log in proper. I was thinking up a name that wouldn't blow my cover, as I thought it was important to keep my straight experience secret from my professional life. This was a while ago...
"Survivor" hadn't been taken up by the "victim/pissed" groups yet.
I live in Tampa. Have for ages. Moved around, and came back.
I bounce like a cat no matter what hits.
Tampa survivor....unaffilliated with the various survivor groups, although I support much of what they do.
I split 5 times. I spent most of my time on first. I calculated splits out, made phase, adapted and bailed. I ate peanut butter. Miller hit me. I coughed blood after being sat on. I carved my arms. Then they sent me to Atlanta for not playing well with others. Fuck straight. For 2 years and 2 weeks they fucked me. I bailed the last time and went home. Great high school years, partied my 20s, am now a custodial father of three, RN at major medical center, and still kickin.
Fuck you Miller Newton. I made it.
Bill Hadley
St Pete & Atlanta
12-80/12-82
I survive.
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:nworthy: I thought of my screen name long ago when I was working with the various acids I use to refine gold and other metals here. One day I got the bright idea to put some aluminum in a gold chloride solution. The resulting reaction produced an amount of gold that precipitated on the bottom of the jar equal to the weight of the aluminum I had dropped in there. AMAZING? Yes, I thought it was. I was grinning from ear to ear for an hour or so. :smokin:
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I choose my name because I have always been pepper to my family and 53190 was my intake date and my soberiety date. I do not share the animosity that others share about the program. So I graciously celebrate that date every year. 13 years this year and my mom and I will stand for the first time in along time in an open meeting and have them sing that old familar song.
Jennifer Aguilera
90-92
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I chose to use my name for the main reason I am looking for people and it will help the find me without giving up to much personal information. Not that I care. The little icon guy I chose for two reasons. One they are a cool little critter from the movie "Princess Nonoke" or something like that and two because of the "huh?" expression on its face.
CL
[ This Message was edited by: ClayL on 2003-03-31 06:14 ]
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Has nothing to do with Straight. I studied Russian language and have always been into astronomy, hence the name "kosmonaut".
Plus my preferred way to go would be strapped to a 2 stage rocket and blasted into outer space. But I could never afford that anyway. :rofl:
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Hey Clay, That's "Mononoke" LOL (just playing)
Morli is my name now. I've been Morli always, but it wasn't until I was 15 that someone decided to start calling me that. At first it was a nickname, but as the years went by, it became what everyone knows me as, even my sister, with no coaxing. My mother named me lesli, and I've never liked hearing it, because it was yelled at me more than spoken when I was a child and teen. I've always considered it my "legal" name. That will change when I get married this year.I'm officially changing it! It was a gift to be given a re-birth with a name.
Morli is the opposite of Lesli. (and I really have no "e" on the end!)
Letting go of the name lesli, is part of letting go of my abusive past.
My real family knows me as Morli.
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When I got my first e-mail address outside of the AOL world, I had a hard time coming up with something that wasn't already taken, 708 was the department number I worked in at my previous job.
I was surprised at how many combinations of my name were already taken.I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure.
--Clarence Darrow