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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => The Seed Discussion Forum => Topic started by: Anonymous on March 14, 2006, 05:00:00 PM
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Dear Connie,
I know the counselor said we shouldn't contact each other during our "cooling off" period, but I couldn't wait anymore.
The day you left, I swore I'd never talk to you again. But that was just the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the first one to make contact. In my fantasies, it was always you who would come crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my pride's cost me a lot of things. I'm tired of pretending I don't miss you.
I don't care about looking bad anymore. I don't care who makes the first move as long as one of us does. Maybe it's time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt. And this is what my heart says: "There's no one like you, Connie." I look for you in the eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but they're not you. They're not even close.
Two weeks ago, I met this girl at Flamingos and brought her home with me. I don't say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depth of my desperation. She was young, maybe 19; with one of those perfect bodies that only youth and maybe a childhood spent ice skating can give you. I mean, just a perfect body. Tits like you wouldn't believe and an ass that just wouldn't quit. Every man's dream, right?
But as I sat on the couch being blown by this stunner, I thought, look at the stuff we've made important in our lives. It's all so superficial. What does a perfect body mean? Does it make her better in bed? Well, in this case, yes, but you see what I'm getting at. Does it make her a better person? Does she have a better heart than my moderately attractive Connie? I doubt it. And I'd never really thought of that before. I don't know, maybe I'm just growing up a little. Later, after I'd tossed her about a half a pint of throat yogurt, I found myself thinking, "Why do I feel so drained and empty?" It wasn't just her flawless technique or her slutty, shameless hunger, but something else. Some nagging feeling of loss. Why did it feel so incomplete?
And then it hit me. It didn't feel the same because you weren't there to watch. Do you know what I mean? Nothing feels the same without you.
Jesus, Connie, I'm just going crazy without you. And everything I do just reminds me of you.
Do you remember Carol, that single mom we met at the Holiday Inn lounge last year? Well, she dropped by last week with a pan of lasagna. She said she figured I wasn't eating right without a woman around. I didn't know what she meant till later, but that's not the real story. Anyway, we had a few glasses of wine and the next thing you know, we're banging away in our old bedroom. And this tart's a total monster in the sack. She's giving me everything, you know, like a real woman does when she's not hung up about her weight or her career and whether the kids can hear us. And all of a sudden, she spots that tilting mirror on your grandmother's old vanity. So she puts it on the floor and we straddle it, right, so we can watch ourselves. And it's totally hot, but it makes me sad, too. Cause I can't help thinking, "Why didn't Connie ever put the mirror on the floor? We've had this old vanity for what, 14 years, and we never used it as a sex toy."
Saturday, your sister drops by with my copy of the restraining order. I mean, Vicky's just a kid and all, but she's got a pretty good head on her shoulders and she's been a real friend to me during this painful time. She's given me lots of good advice about you and about women in general. She's pulling for us to get back together, Connie, she really is. So, we're doing Jell-O shots in a hot bubble bath and talking about
happier times. Here's this teenage girl with the same DNA as you and all I can do is think of how much she looked like you when you were 18. And that just about makes me cry.
And then it turns out Vicky's really into the whole anal thing, that gets me to thinking about how many times I pressured you about trying it and how that probably fueled some of the bitterness between us. But do you see how even then, when I'm thrusting inside your baby sister's cinnamon ring, all I can do is think of you?
It's true, Connie. In your heart you must know it. Don't you think we could start over? Just wipe out all the grievances away and start fresh? I think we can.
If you feel the same please, please, please let me know. Otherwise, can you let me know where the fucking remote is.
Love,
Dan
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Boy. This was evil. I hope it was a joke.
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What's Connie's maiden name Dan?
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Look, I know this is something "somejoker". What's her maiden Name?
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Dan are you really Fabio? Is this a soft porn novel?
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This was also posted on the straight site, but it was "for straightlings".
I really don't know what to make of it. Not much really. I mean, it isn't funny and it certainly isn't topical.
Oh well, no loss no gain.
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I don't know about "not funny", I laughed my ass off when i read it. Wish I had sent a similar letter to my wife when we divorced.
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I think I might know why you are divorced.
That was on the cruel side.
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On 2006-03-16 07:13:00, Ft. Lauderdale wrote:
"I think I might know why you are divorced.
That was on the cruel side. "
YOu have no fucking clue why I am divorced. My wife had 2 male friends of ours that she was fucking while I was out trying to make a living for the family. She spent damn near everything I earned; she drank way too much and the final straw was when I confronted her about fucking our "friends" she broke a beer bottle across my face and I have a big fucking scar near my eye where she punctered my eye ball.
(edited for personal attack GregFL).
[ This Message was edited by: GregFL on 2006-03-16 17:54 ]
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Well sounds like you have every reason to be angry. I just thought it was crude to let the world know all your dirty laundry. I'm sorry that that happened to you. It does sound like I want you to get some help with your anger before you hurt yourself or someone else. Getting fucked over is no fun I do do know how it feels, believe me. I also know you want to direct your anger somewhere.
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I have had about all the "help" I can stand from mental health "professionals". No, I have friends I can talk to about my marriage experince.
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What's her maiden name?
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Hey as long as you are talking to friends about it ...thats good. How old are you if you don't mind me asking?
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Do you have kids?
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On 2006-03-16 13:36:00, Ft. Lauderdale wrote:
"Hey as long as you are talking to friends about it ...thats good. How old are you if you don't mind me asking? "
why does that matter? I am an adult.
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On 2006-03-16 13:37:00, Ft. Lauderdale wrote:
"Do you have kids?"
3 kids, 19, 23 and 25; but again, why does that matter?
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whoever wrote this is answering his own posts. In other words, he is trolling.
Hey anon, you want to come here, I will delete your posts if you troll or attack others. Otherwise, you are welcome to participate.
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And btw, my marriage was no pic-nic either. I won't even go into the things my ex did to me, and I wish it was just a bottle in the face. That would have hurt a lot worse.
But airing it out on the internet? Com'n buddy, think it thru. Show some decorum.
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On 2006-03-16 17:55:00, GregFL wrote:
"whoever wrote this is answering his own posts. In other words, he is trolling.
Hey anon, you want to come here, I will delete your posts if you troll or attack others. Otherwise, you are welcome to participate.
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sorry greggy, since you have access to ip addresses, u know that I am not answering my own posts. This shit started when I stated that I'd wish I'd sent that post to my wife. That's it. Go ahead and delete them. Ireally do not care.
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Oh, come on yenz guys! It's a friggen joke!
There is not a "fragment" in all nature, for every relative fragment of one thing is a full harmonious unit in itself.
-- John Muir
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It's not a joke. What's "crazy Connie's" maiden name?
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On 2006-03-17 11:22:00, Anonymous wrote:
"It's not a joke. What's "crazy Connie's" maiden name?"
uh, yeah, it is a joke. gee, some people believe everything they hear on the radio or read on the internet, or newspaper or even some stupid people believe what Rush says. Some people are just kind of thick like that.
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Not really greg, alias-"somejoker" I don't believe a word you say you mason.
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Is her maiden name "Marston"?
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Im sorry if you misunderstood me. I wouldn't delete your post, only the "fuck you asshole" type posts.
Maybe I got the whole thing confused. It seemed someone was railing against their ex wife. Ignore me, I am bailing from this thread.
Gregfl
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Oh please Dan tell me all about your ex? I think I might know the ho. :wave:
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On 2006-03-18 21:13:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Oh please Dan tell me all about your ex? I think I might know the ho. :wave: "
Go away, this thread is done with. You don't know the person because this is a JOKE.
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Then you are a joker. Delete the thread asshole.
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who or what is 'the thread asshole'? :wink:
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On 2006-03-20 16:48:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Then you are a joker. Delete the thread asshole."
Ass hole is ok, but fuck you is not? Makes you wonder?
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What exactly does it make you wonder? :idea:
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makes me wonder that when I said "fuck you" to annother anon poster, it was deleted by the moderator; when another anon called someone an "asshole", it was not deleted. I guess "fuck you" is far worse than calling someone an "asshole". That's what I mean by "makes me wonder".
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You think too much
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On 2006-03-28 08:23:00, Anonymous wrote:
"makes me wonder that when I said "fuck you" to annother anon poster, it was deleted by the moderator; when another anon called someone an "asshole", it was not deleted. I guess "fuck you" is far worse than calling someone an "asshole". That's what I mean by "makes me wonder"."
Oh get over it already. Somone directly called someone an asshole and I deleted it. Someone else made a joke about it and I let it stand.
It is at my discretion. Sorry but I am not perfect and won't make everyone happy all the time. I will not police language, I will only delete personal attacks with little or no substance. Blurting fuck you or your an asshole at someone as the main content in a post qualifies for that. Making a joke that includes these words does not. My goal is to moderate content as little as possible, and then only to prevent giving people a forum to visciously attack other people. You can do that elsewhere if that is within your personality, but here the goal is to let your argument prevail on substance, not attacks.
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:nworthy: :nworthy: :nworthy:
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Greg,
You do an excellent job of minimally moderating this forum. Threads like this are the exception here. I have learned and grown so much from what I read here - I get nothing out of personal attacks and they're usually not clever enough to be amusing.
w
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Thanks Cleveland. I appreciate that because moderation is a bit controversial around here. I just wanted a place that illicited real discussion and not attacks. Maybe it holds down the amount of content, but I hope it improves the overall quality.
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On 2006-03-29 07:21:00, GregFL wrote:
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On 2006-03-28 08:23:00, Anonymous wrote:
"makes me wonder that when I said "fuck you" to annother anon poster, it was deleted by the moderator; when another anon called someone an "asshole", it was not deleted. I guess "fuck you" is far worse than calling someone an "asshole". That's what I mean by "makes me wonder"."
Oh get over it already. Somone directly called someone an asshole and I deleted it. Someone else made a joke about it and I let it stand.
It is at my discretion. Sorry but I am not perfect and won't make everyone happy all the time. I will not police language, I will only delete personal attacks with little or no substance. Blurting fuck you or your an asshole at someone as the main content in a post qualifies for that. Making a joke that includes these words does not. My goal is to moderate content as little as possible, and then only to prevent giving people a forum to visciously attack other people. You can do that elsewhere if that is within your personality, but here the goal is to let your argument prevail on substance, not attacks.
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Hey, I could care less about your moderation. If you want to delete one, and not another tha tis ok with me.
I have too much going on in my life to worry about a moderation on the posts.
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So did Connie get married again? I thought this thread was going somewhere informative. Is she alone because of her attitudes and belief system she no doubt cultivated at the seed?
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W. T. ??????? Thats not nice.
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Where is Connie?