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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: starry-eyed pirate on September 27, 2005, 09:06:00 PM
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i was thinkin' about how Fucked Up the World is.
i was Drivin' home at twilite down through the west Appalachian hills. Alone in my truck through a country of coal and farms. There was a single bright star(pro'ly Venus) in the west jus' above where the Sun went down. Did ya see it ??
i was thinkin' just then about misbehavers' words today. Thinkin' what must be goin' on over there. Some Fucked Up Shit !!
i remember how when i was copped out i was hunted by the world. How i talked to some cop from a payphone at 7/11 and then had to bolt. The cops were hunting me.
i thought about the Board.
i hope DOC SLOW gets his Fuckin' money back.
Ex-Prisoner is fierce and i want her on my side.
Misbehaver. Take care of yourself(somehow i know you will)
i wonder if the anonymous flirt, Sweet Vengeance wants me to take her to the Mayan ruins in the jungles of Belize.
i'm thinkin' of joinin' The Red Temple Cult.
The World is so Fucked Up.
::dove:: ::dove:: :skull:
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If you would have justice in this world, then begin to see that a human being is not a means to some end. People are not commodities. When human beings are just to one another government becomes obsolete and real freedom is born; SPIRITUAL ANARCHY.[ This Message was edited by: starry-eyed pirate on 2005-09-27 18:27 ]
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So live life while you can. Love your wife or girlfriend. Try to make a few bucks. Treat people with dignity, and be happy.
Life is short.....
Peace brother............
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Yeah, the world is completely fucked up. All you can do is be true to yourself and make your corner of the world a little better and good place for you and those you touch. ::rainbow::
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Is living paycheck to paycheck a crime punishable by death in floodwater?
By Lisa Earle McLeod
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Thanks for posting this. I'm pretty emotional after reading this and some other stuff around here today.
wc
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Righteous.
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Nice words my friend.
And you could be right, who knows.
(is that Haiku ??)
What is it that escapes me,
As i hesitate on the threshold ??
(well right now i gotta get stoned)
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Is that Haiku ??
DragoN-FlY
Out of the sunshine
comes love on a lifeline.
Day is a dizzy ride.
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Hm-Hm-Hmmmmmmm :smile:
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Yeah.
Do you remember hangin' out and smokin' cigarettes in the lobby of the Hilton in Downtown Atlanta ?? i didn' have any idea how fuckin' filthy i was. i judged you looked pretty clean so i must 'a' been still pretty clean too, but when i went up those fancy stairs, with the gold railin' and the red carpet to find the restroom and take a leak i didn' fuckin' recognize myself when i turned away from the urinal and saw my reflection in the fancy, wall length mirror !!! i was completely covered in railroad dirt. There were clean streaks on my face where my sweat had run. i'm surprised we didn' get kicked outta there. :smile:
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On 2005-09-27 20:45:00, dragonfly wrote:
"remember andre sadow**ki's sister tommorrow?
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No. Why ?? Wait was she a blonde ??
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On 2005-09-27 20:40:00, dragonfly wrote:
"... sleeping on the shoulder of the 12 lane highway...
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Reminds me of another time, i fell asleep on the side of the hiway, so it does.
i was comin' East from Californa but was already as far as Missoura or someplace as 'at. i think i hitched thru St. Louis that day and was on the East side of the city when i started thinkin' it was gettin' dark and the drainage ditch along the hiway was lookin' more and more like it was gonna be my bed. i had decided to turn in after a long day, then i suddenly changed my mind. One more ride. So i put my thumb back out and caught a long ride, just before dark. The cat was tall and strong, a former bad-ass drunken fool who was now a sober post-man and a Christian. He told me 'bout his bad-ass days and bein' in the Navy and about his daughter, who he had just dropped off 500 miles away, in some other place. He had a new wife and an infant son in Evansville,IN and that's were he said i could spend the night.
We pulled up to his house and his fat wife was sittin' on the stoop with the babe. He warned me that she might not be happy that he had brought home a stranger again. She was cool though and ever'tin' cool. We talked about stuff for a while then i got a shower and some food and a place to sleep on the floor.
The next day we were up at some God-forsaken hour. He had to be at work at like 5:30am or sumthin'. His wife cooked us a huge breakfast:
Oatmeal, eggs, bacon, oranges, grapes, ba-na-nas toast, milk and juice. Your standard midwestern farmers breakfast. The woman must 'a' growed up on the farm.
Well, after we ate, he dropped me off up on the hiway, what hiway was that ?? interstate 70 i imagine. He gave me a pocket new testament with the good parts(according to him) underlined in different colors.
i stood up there in the mornin' sun tryin' to flag a ride, nobody seem to know me, they all passed me by. i was tired still. It was July and though i was clean and well fed i was tired of the road.
i fuckin' laid down to sleep right on the side of that interstate. i fell asleep with my thumb stickin' out.
i woke up to the sound of a semi trailor slowin' down. This cat had seen me sleepin' and pulled over outta mercy for me. i jumped up, looked around,(find yourself some fun), grabbed my pack and ran up to look in the bottom window of the passenger side door. i climbed into the truck. Normally professional drivers won' pick up hitch-hikers cause of insurance, but this cat was cool. Tol' me about runnin' away from home when he was 14 and how he grew ganja in the woods until he had enough money to buy his first rig. He tol' me i would 'a' never got picked up back there. i tol' him i had some acid and gave him some, never imagining for a second that he would drop it all right then. We drove through downtown Columbus Ohio while the cat was trippin' behind the wheel of his semi. i watched him negociate traffic signals and ol' ladies in crosswalks dosed. He had some issue with the state of Kentucky and wouldn' go there, so he had to get off the interstate and take the 2 lane hiways to the north, that go through Columbus and the towns of Ohio. i hooked him up with some more :wink: (acid) when he finally dropped me off on some back road(hiway 50)
He dropped me off and drove away and i went into the red-neck biker bar. Had a couple o' shots of that sweet whiskey and hitch-hiked down the road...
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I've done plenty of road trips over the years. Three of those times I drove cross country. I was never tripping but a couple times were very spontaneous. Driving for hours on end was so liberating...I felt completely free from the fucked up world. It seemed like an adventure!
One of those trips a friend went with me. Once day we got the idea in our head and two days later we packed as much as we could in a little red chevette....that was a sight to see! We were completely crammed into this tiny car. One night we slept for a few hours sitting upright in the car after we pulled off to sleep on the side of the highway. The next night we slept in a motel parking lot...again upright....that was damn uncomfortable. We had little money either so we couldnt afford a room. Between the two of us we had $120 for this trip, all of which ended up in the gas tank, or being spent on cheap fast food, smokes and beer. As soon as we got to California 52 hours later we turned right around and hit the road again...this time to Vegas. We met some guys on the strip and ended up staying with them in some shitty apartment on Fremont street. While there, the little red Chevette died. So we were stranded in Vegas with no money. A couple months later my friend found a ride home but I stayed longer.
Amazing where those spontaneous road trips take you.
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As a child I worshipped the Sun, Inately I just did..I prayed and wished and sang all to the Sun.
I think we all know more as children, and then because of our enviroment we forget. We spend our entire lives trying to remember our connection to everything , that we know we were aware of as children.
So,weren't we heading home to the Maya? :razz:
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On 2005-09-28 10:46:00, Anonymous wrote:
"As a child I worshipped the Sun, Inately I just did..I prayed and wished and sang all to the Sun.
I think we all know more as children, and then because of our enviroment we forget. We spend our entire lives trying to remember our connection to everything , that we know we were aware of as children.
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I think you are ight about that. Parents fuck you up, that's what they do.
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Philip Larkin - This Be The Verse
They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.
But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.
Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.
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Shopenhauer paraphrased: The best thing people can do is stop reproducing and let the species die out.
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:smile:
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On 2005-09-29 05:33:00, dragonfly wrote:
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Wish I could sing for you all, I have a song about the inate wisdom children give up in order to take on this "reality" we give them."
>>>>Thoreau (not an exact quote): "i am always regretting that i'm not as wise as the day i was born."<<<<<
"Don't worry, I'll have my lecherous bastard ways under control.
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Yeah... Right. :roll:
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Damn !! How do you guys do the multiple quote thing ?? :???:
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On 2005-09-29 05:33:00, dragonfly wrote:
I kept coming to the conclusion that suicide was a compassionate act.
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>>>I have never heard anyone else say what I am always afraid to let others in on. I too always come to that conclusion. <<<<
On 2005-09-29 05:33:00, dragonfly wrote:
Don't worry, I'll have my lecherous bastard ways under control.
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>>> Silly, be yourself ::cheers:: :smokin:
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Get into your cosmic consciousness. You are already extinct. :skull:
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bbump..
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Yup ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop:: ::flipflop::
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On 2005-10-04 05:20:00, dragonfly wrote:
"Oh so it's you is it?
Flip flops and flower carts....
I feel like I'm back in group watching a miserable misbehavor struggling to entertain himself with shreads of a snot rag and a toilet paper tube to keep them in.
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Yeah!But it got me kicked out of the program and stopped the abuse!And I NEVER got off first phase which means that I never was in a position to abuse others to make a phase.
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On 2005-10-04 04:34:00, dragonfly wrote:
Seems like somebody could just constantly post new and stupider posts, one after the other in order to prevent the forum from being useable.
I just wonder if that happens very often. It seems like it would have happened by now.
Rather disturbingly, it seems to happen in earnest whenever something comes up that might make the Semblers a tad uncomfortable.
"When did I realize it? Well, one day I was praying and suddenly realized I was talking to myself."
--God
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Wish I could say the same about myself.
Well that's just too damned bad now, isn't it?
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Maybe misbehaviors.. But it's more like Phasers who can't admitt they were duped and used. And they are incapable of comming to grips with why they followed and believed in Straight.
Misbehaviors had one definite advantage over the Phaser. We had a free mind, to think about whatever we wanted. We had time to process some of the Straightjunk while still sitting on our hands frozen in 1st phase.
The anonjunk posts seem to be made to deture us from the truth. Either to hide it or in alot of cases the board seems to get slammed when important- hard to talk about topics arise. Like people who can't face themselves are spamming what they can't process off the forum.
A nifty lil` way to get that wash cloth and wipe the table pretending they never split the milk.
Also topics get bumped because the reader thinks it's a topic worthy of page 1 and honestly wants to see it discussed more.
The bump, flipflop etc reminds me of those phasers in group making all those hand gestures,LOL...I like to imagine their hands were puppets on strings.... :razz:
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The anonjunk posts seem to be made to deture us from the truth. Either to hide it or in alot of cases the board seems to get slammed when important- hard to talk about topics arise. Like people who can't face themselves are spamming what they can't process off the forum.
A nifty lil` way to get that wash cloth and wipe the table pretending they never split the milk.
Deter. To dissuade. Learn how to spell, please. It can help with these 'anonjunk' posts.
And is everything in this world a fucking conspiracy? :roll:
PUH-LEEEZE. :lol:
Ffs, do you really think that's what goes on here...? And even if what you say is true... I mean...to be put off by something like that is WEAK nonetheless...
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On 2005-10-04 05:20:00, dragonfly wrote:
"Oh so it's you is it?
Flip flops and flower carts....
I feel like I'm back in group watching a miserable misbehavor struggling to entertain himself with shreads of a snot rag and a toilet paper tube to keep them in.
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oh fuck off. you would like to back in group, wouldn't you.
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On 2005-10-04 09:13:00, Withdraw wrote:
"Like people who can't face themselves are spamming what they can't process off the forum.
A nifty lil` way to get that wash cloth and wipe the table pretending they never split the milk.
...The bump, flipflop etc reminds me of those phasers in group making all those hand gestures,LOL...I like to imagine their hands were puppets on strings.... :razz: "
I bet you're real fun at a party with all your psycho-analysis crap. You fucking condescending cunt bitch. Fuck you.
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a nerve there?
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Spelling an issue for you? Wow, lay off that Websters, It's fogging your brain.
Conspiracy, I dont think was implied except by maybe Antigen.
People who cant look at themselves honestly was mentioned though and again you took the focus off that. Apparently that hit a nerve.
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Fiy, WD there are at leaast two anons posting on this page, let alone this thread. I'm the one who thoughtfully pointed out your blatant spelling error of spelling deter "deture." I'm sorry, I refrain from spelling corrections most of the time, but this one was just too heinous to ignore. I don't know if it's MY brain you are referring to, but that comeback was lame.
You implied conspiracy by saying this:
"the anonjunk posts seemed to made to DETER us from the truth. Either to hide it or in alot of cases the board seems to get slammed when important- hard to talk about topics arise. Like people who can't face themselves are spamming what they can't process off the forum."
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People who cant look at themselves honestly was mentioned though and again you took the focus off that.
And....
Oh EXCUSE ME for fucking talking. :flame:
Now I wanna insult you like that other anon did up there! WHAT is your fucking problem?? sorry for "taking the focus" away from you. Sounds like YOUR brain may have a fog issue...stay focused now, you might forget what we were talking about! :lol:
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Yeah, that is the kind of annoying jack shit I am flaming. To distract WD from the planned rap she wants to get going on "Taking An Honest Look At Yourself, Fornits Posters!" K-rap.
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But WD is so ABOVE the rest of us since she was a misbehaver... :roll:
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On 2005-10-04 19:51:00, Anonymous wrote:
"But WD is so ABOVE the rest of us since she was a misbehaver... :roll:"
give her a fucking break, already. you sound like some staff member trying to goad the group into confrontation mode......
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maybe we are just disagreeable! no need to elevate this undeservedly to Straight rap-alike status!
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I know, and i apologize if that bugs you. but does everything that reminds us of straight always have to become such a 'thing'? i mean, she DOES do that...maybe a different, more palatable choice of words, perhaps...eh?
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maybe we are just disagreeable! no need to elevate this undeservedly to Straight rap-alike status!
Well said, anon. I was replying to the same one that you were replying to, in case this isn't obvious to anyone.
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Look you all, Im not against you. I don't think of being above any of you. I am here with you, like I was with you in Straight. I have my own way of thinking about things and don't judge anyone for their way. My post was my point of view. And yes, I did feel attacked, rightfully so.
It is brought up alot phaser vs misbehavior and how we may be diffrent. I don't take the stand that I am better than a phaser/ Graduate. I am open to discuss anything, I tell my truth and listen to yours. I do think alot of psychobabble , but it's because I like to understand myself and make change where change is needed. I spent 15ish years wondering wth was wrong w/ me for not getting off First phase. And wonder that sometimes still.
I know there are some people here who feel they are above those who complied. I've said it before My choices of non compliance aren't/weren't always the best way. I have my own guilt about Straight and Im not afraid to see it.
I also don't feel the whole conversation started by DF is a hijack. It only further proves the world is a fucked up place, Because we can't come together. I'm sure many of you know me for my Common ground post, and I still mean that. There is a common ground we can all meet on, but everyone has to make that choice. I don't mean to be condesending or judge anyone at all, I just state how I feel or think about topics. I never said I was right or my way is best..it's just my way. Another way of looking at things. I'm sorry if that offends anyone, but I have always been someone who speaks out.
PS-Please check my grammer and spelling,if that is what you like to do.because my typing in general is poor. . I didn't realize the anons were 2 diffrent posters..Sorry bout that.
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On 2005-10-04 20:37:00, Withdraw wrote:
" I do think alot of psychobabble , but it's because I like to understand myself and make change where change is needed."
zoiks! where'd you learn that from?
"I spent 15ish years wondering wth was wrong w/ me for not getting off First phase. And wonder that sometimes still."
they got you
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man, sometimes this forum really gives me the creeps...
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They did get me.. That's why I googled Straight last year, looking for answers. I hurt just like the rest of you.
And maybe I do like to discuss topics. Sorry if that makes anyone think of raps. I feel like the more we understand how everyone experienced things, we can understand ourselves more. And I am here to learn about why I think certian ways or react certian ways.
We don't always have to post about hate and anger and killing people ya know.[ This Message was edited by: Withdraw on 2005-10-04 21:04 ]
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I just felt compelled to reply about your wondering why you didn't get off first phase...
I don't know what happened while you were in there, but it was all a joke anyways. They just made you wait a certain amount of time, and made you jumpt through sufficient hoops, and then they turned you down for a sufficient number of attempts at progressing through the program, and then suddenly, without warning, you make second phase. That's it...there's no real logic to it, don't think that there was.
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I was frozen on day zero the entire time.. LOL. I never got a chance to put in for phase, so no idea how it worked except what I read here.
It is kinda funny in a fucked up way now. And it shows how the world is truly a fucked up place.
Now were kinda hijacking :razz: