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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Anonymous on August 02, 2005, 01:55:00 AM
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When I was in Straight, It seemed like the kids on 4th and 5th phase had these remarkable personalities, a glow. I always wanted to be like them. They had everything together it seemed. I was one of the youngest at the time and I was like a dumb baby blonde. I wished someday to have an outgoing personality like one of the 4th or 5th phasers. I figured if I made it that far than I would have it all together like they did. I would know how to live life the right way and everyone would love me. I didnt make it past 3rd phase and I coppped out and was brought back and didnt work the program. They say that the lower phases are for breaking the person like they do in the military, Break them down and then rebuild them with a proper personality? So when you are on 1st phase you are stripped. Stripped of your identity. You are nothing and you believe you are just shit. What if, you never get rebuilt? what about all the people that left Straight right after they were stripped of themselves? I have tried to kill myself. I believe me getting pregnant at such a young age has saved my life. When my kids are grown and gone, I dunno what next to live for. People can tell me to get over it and I would if I could. Are most ofthe people that come here and say that we should not blame our problems on Straight, are they the ones that graduated or got to the upper phases? Did I mess myself up mentally cause I chose to cop out and not work the program? My parents never abused each other but I tend to get with abusive men, why? I am angry at Straight and how dare anyone tell me to get over something when they cant provide me the help to get over it. Now I look up to people like Sammy. I hope to meet her one day. She knows how it felt to spend long hours on the floor with other peoples knees shoved into your leg. I hate Straight! It hurt me, It still hurts me. I cant get rid of it!
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Yeah, Str8 is/was just a complete mind rape. i wouldn't spend any time second guessin' yourself for leavin' the program when you did. it seems to me that you have a good understanding of str8s' mind raping techniques. i think the less time you had to spend in there the less mental damage you sustained, at least in general. i went through the whole thing and finally graduated after nearly 2 years in the program. i think you are fortunate to have left the program when you did. The stripping down, the demolition of the personality was extremely traumatic but the re-construction is the brainwash that roots into the mind. There was no being re-built with a proper personality. Instead there was a lie and an attempt to decieve; a dichotomy of the mind. A disease was planted inside of those of us who were forced to endure the complete and absolute brutality of the full violence of the rape. i sympathize with your feelings, sister but don't ever feel sorry for yourself that you might have missed out on somethin'. Fuck str8, Fuck all authority. You are a Goddess. :wink:
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If you would have justice in this world, then begin to see that a human being is not a means to some end. People are not commodities. When human beings are just to one another government becomes obsolete and real freedom is born; SPIRITUAL ANARCHY.[ This Message was edited by: starry-eyed pirate on 2005-08-01 23:31 ]
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You guys are ungrateful as shit. This druggie attitude makes me sick. You are lucky your parents got you in when they did or you would have died on the street. Quit trying to justify your druggie behavior and GET HONEST. Who has something to say to these guys... :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave:
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I do not know who ye are ANON but if ye had the guts to actually register here with this forum ye may actually be healing by now if ye are in fact a STR8 graduate. If ye call watching a childs arm being broken in front of me and then the staff members then lie to their parents about what happened, and tell the parents that "he is a druggie and he will do anything to get out of here, anything to resist treatment to further his druggie lifestyle". Then combine that with them telling the parents that he just lost control and punched the wall and then they had to restrain him , when none of that ever happened at all. So, If ye call that a great place then maybe i am missing something here.
To the first poster, I do not blame you at all for doubting anything because that is what that place did to you and me and the rest of us here....we all have gone through that part of trying to deprogram ourselves, and I know it is not easy. EMDR therapy helped me with it a great deal...google it maybe....
I feel for you and I will light a candle and pray for your speedy recovery from all of the stripping that ye endured. Part of me had to go back and revisit some of my old friend prior to "the program" to aide in accomplishing reclaiming myself.
Ye are brave for speaking out and I applaud you!
Now it is time to heal and take action if ye can.
Much luck to you and yours!
warm regards,
-DPDon't laugh when you leave this courtroom, thinking you have beat the system because you have looked these things up yourself. We are going to get you down the road.
Washington Superior CourtJudge Rebecca Baker
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Miller Newton touched my junk liberally. He strapped me in to his Straightmobile and he
couldn't keep his offensive hands off of me. He was performing many red flag touches. I
couldnt believe what the fuck was going on. I told Miller Newton the city would not approve
of a millionaire touching an underage kid for free. Can you believe it? Miller Newton did all this. He picked me off the street, strapped my arms and legs down in the Straightmobile's passenger seat, and just wouldn't stop fondling my cock'n'balls.
They definately were red flag touches. The goddamn referee he had in the back seat kept on
raising up this red flag every time he touched my junk but did "Dr." Newton care? NO WAY!! He
just kept on doing it. I couldn't believe what the fuck was going on, indeed. I pleaded with
Miller Newton but to no avail. I told him the city would not approve of such a wealthy man
touching an underage kid like me (at the time I was 13) without at least compensating me for
the trauma and the use of my body as his own personal plaything.
This got to him, worrying about his image. He continued to fondle me, all the while ignoring
the referee's red flags. Then he drove the Straightmobile to my house and ejected the seat I was in! It was amazing. But surprisingly, after I woke up the next morning, my bank account had $150k in it!!! Can you believe it?????????????????????????