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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Anonymous on July 18, 2005, 07:45:00 PM
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weed. time.
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Xanax. Lots of exercise+yoga. Oh, and Ambien at nighttime (10mg, not 5. You'll sleep too deep to have nightmares). Healthy diet.
Percocet+pedicure=bliss
Find yourself a nail technician, masseuse/estitician, and gay hairdresser (people you feel comfortable talking to)- that way you won't have to see a real therapist.
If your PTSD is from being in a program, post about it whenever possible, with specific names, make sure and say how they are total losers for working at said program, and hope they read it someday and see what ignorant scum they really are.
Some of these programs have had to change some of their ways in response to the light shed on them by this site and others. That gives me some satisfaction.
Good Luck.
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Yes, there is a solution.
Kill yourself.
You won't have anymore Bi Polar or PTSD. EMDR does not work, counseling won't help except while you're in it and you can't afford it because of the society we live and its perceptions that are causing your discomfort and dis-ease. And your family can't help you, try as you dream to believe this. Your lover or a significant other won't help you. Your belongings and your goals and aspirations won't fulfill you or get you out of yourself.
The only way out is death, you don't care about yourself. Why should you? And why should you pretend that you do? That last question's answer is more of a waste of time than the first question's answer. You're deluding yourself and what is funnier is that you have already thought, probably many times though you have been dumbed down or numbed from so much time here that you don't realize what you are thinking or that you are not in control of your willpower or thoughts, that you are deluding yourself. There is NOTHING wrong with you. This is why you amount to nothing. Therefore, to die is the first and last alternative for you. It is the only free choice aside from all the seeming free choices you have made in your, or choices that others have made for you in your miserable, tortured, lifeless, working, teasing, ranting, years here; they have all wound up to be a weight on the final and common decision that is staring at you and has remained with you since time began for you. Your family can never fulfill you, treats and distractions cannot fulfill you like killing yourself can (see my other posts on how to kill yourself and the careful planning of the one true action left for yourself).
The writer of this post assumes no responsibility if someone actually does decide to kill themself. Although she believes that the killing of oneself is a kind gesture to oneself, she does not, in any way, condone the action of others or offer permissions to do it. This post is merely for entertainment purposes. And what entertainment killing oneself is! However, if you do decide you want to kill yourself; contact me here so I can watch you and I will film this beautiful event for you.
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Yes, there is a solution.
Kill yourself.
Or you could always let ME do it for you... :skull:
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That sounds reel nice.
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...as in, kill me softly. :wink:
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i have ptsd and it can make things real difficult. i went to see a therapist about it and after a year of counselling i didn't think i was making too much progress. i don't have much confidence in psychologists. i was out of straight in '87 and i am still sufferring from the trauma of the whole thing almost 20 years later. i get real paranoid about being in public sometimes and especially if i have to deal with the law or the government i get all bent out of shape. nightmares 'n' all.
i don't really know what to tell you about how to heal up from it. i hang out with as many hippies as i can and try to get to as many rainbow gatherings as i can, and that is where the most of my healing has occurred. Good people offering true love and compassion are the best medicine. Reach beyond yourself, transcend your ego(if you can). Peace.
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Madness takes its toll. Please have exact change.
--Anonymous
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On 2005-07-19 07:17:00, starry-eyed pirate wrote:
"i have ptsd and it can make things real difficult. i went to see a therapist about it and after a year of counselling i didn't think i was making too much progress. i don't have much confidence in psychologists. i was out of straight in '87 and i am still sufferring from the trauma of the whole thing almost 20 years later. i get real paranoid about being in public sometimes and especially if i have to deal with the law or the government i get all bent out of shape. nightmares 'n' all.
i don't really know what to tell you about how to heal up from it. i hang out with as many hippies as i can and try to get to as many rainbow gatherings as i can, and that is where the most of my healing has occurred. Good people offering true love and compassion are the best medicine. Reach beyond yourself, transcend your ego(if you can). Peace. "
The only way to transcend your ego is by killing yourself. So lets get to it. Start by carefully planning out how you will die. Then act upon it. Nothing more fulfilling will you find, especially not in disabled states. You can do it. This IS something YOU can do.
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Understanding it helps. :tup:
There is no cure. It happened to you, you can't go back, but you can change how it effects you now. Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-- Charlie Brown, _Peanuts_ [Charles Schulz]
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The thing that makes me the most nervous is when no one else notices the thing that's making me nervous. For example, some years ago, I went w/ my hubby and some friends to some event on the beach. I hadn't done that in a very long time, having been busier than a one armed paper hanger trying to support my kid and myself. So I was rather expecting the kind of mood and setting that I remembered from such events when I was a little kid. You know, layed back, fun, etc.
Instead, we're greeting by BSO officers everywhere; some directing traffic in the designated parking areas (peering around into the cars and into the faces of the drivers and passengers), some guarding the limited paths of ingress and egress they'd set up w/ temp hurricane fencing. And the people were... well, not entirely aware, but very much subdued and less merry than I remembered. This creeped me out, but my friends didn't even notice. When I said something, they told me to just forget about it and have fun anyway. I found that to be impossible.
The event was an Independence Day celebration in Ft. Lauderdale. Nowadays, it seems more people are noticing and commenting on the epidemic level mission creep. And I sleep better because of it.
The thing is, as incredible as it may seem to some, what happened to us actually did happen. And the people who founded, ran and defended these programs did not, as they should have, landed up in a lock up or a loony bin or alienated from society. Instead, they've ridden the TOUGHLOVE wave to stardome and great wealth. Once you know that, once you see it, it's disturbing as hell! It's not a sign of dysfuncion or disorder to be disturbed by this sort of thing.
Man will never be free until the last king is strangled with the entrails of the last priest.
--Denis Diderot, French encyclopedist
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On 2005-07-19 07:17:00, starry-eyed pirate wrote:
i hang out with as many hippies as i can and try to get to as many rainbow gatherings as i can,
That's the problem right there---hanging out with hippies at Drainbow gatherings with Rainbums. Score some crack, listen to Black Sabbath, and take lotsa xanax. You'll be fine.
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But don't you think this is really bothering Sembler on a deeper level. Hell how would you feel? He knows and sees what people write? How many thousands of post now? I think the reality is Sembler is troubled by all of it. I don't think he won this, and even though he has riches, the grass was not greener on the other side. I believe he's really upset by all of it.
who knows?
Sometimes I think we should use a different tactic, one more of conciliation with compensatory arrangements.
We are entitled compensation in some way.
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Well, I don't know or care how the Semblers feel about themselves. Though the thought of them getting stood up and grilled OMR style for about 3 days straight is sort of amusing.
I'm mainly interested in getting the other side of the story to people who think the drug war and another WallMart are good, wholesome, community building causes. In my view, these people are dangerously unbalanced and should not be trusted w/ any sort of authority over others. I tried not to work for, you know, anyone who ate children with their bare hands. I won't pretend that I was ideologically consistent.
--Dick Morris; Political consultant for Bill Clinton, Trent Lott and Tom Ridge
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Walmart??? What's wrong with Walmart? You can roll 5 fucking TV's out their door with 1 receipt. Just keep going back, show the same receipt to the dick at the door and "roll off" those over priced mutherfuckers. Plus you can go their late at night fucked up and have dinner on the deli isle.
Walmart is the Disneyland of shoplifters ::birthday::
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On 2005-07-19 18:38:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
Walmart is the Disneyland of shoplifters ::birthday::
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Home Depot's pretty good, too, and their stuff is more easily pawnable or tradable for drugs....
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How can you 'roll five televisions' out a WalMart door please???
Please contact me here about that. Thanks.
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he does it one at a time, using the original receipt. Smoke some crack for me when you're done trading them in.....
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Haha, that's great. You actually got 5 tv's? LOL
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I know someone that's a pro at that type of stuff. Washers, dryers, Barbie Jeeps, TVs. It's pretty easy to find smokers to do this sort of thing.
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Buy the first TV. keep the receipt. Go back later, take someone else if you can. Take a cart to the electronics section. Load up a TV of the same make and model. Head out the door. At the door show the door person your receipt. They'll glance at it and nod OK. The receipts have the date and time. If they question it, which is very rare, say you had to get a truck, or it was a gift and the person was with you or whatever. Be confident not nervious. People get theirselves caught by their nervious behavior.
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On 2005-07-19 19:27:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
Be confident not nervious. People get theirselves caught by their nervious behavior.
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Sound shoplifting advice. Works when you're fucking married women and get questioned about it by no-good busybodies, too.
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On 2005-07-19 19:34:00, Three Springs Waygookin wrote:
"this went from ptsd to shoplifting? :rofl:
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Hey, don't knock it. I have found it to be very therapuetic. :lol: It helps me feel better once all that adrenaline hits.
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In Straight I was a bundle of nerves, stomach swirling, paranoid and full of fear for 1 year and 10 months. On 5th phase trainee, I rarely had to go to 5th phase rap. But when I did, I felt horrified. I managed to hide those feelings, because feeling that way meant I was full of shit and going to suffer concequences. I was going along doing what I thought was right, but the place nerve racked me because of the way it was.
Because of that straight experience, I have mastered the art hiding and dealing with fear.
I can calmly ride through situations that bring most other people trembling to their knees.
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Well, If you do get cought who cares? jail cant be as bad as straight. Why be nervous? Some homeless people do crimes so they can go to jail and have free medical care and food and a bed to sleep in. Crimes happen more often in the winter!
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Ever have somebody try to startl you as a joke and get creeped out by your response?
Puritanism: The haunting fear that someone, somewhere, may be happy.
--H. L. Mencken, American publisher
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Ever look at a flower and hate it? Ever see a couple kissing and get sickened by it? Ever wish the human race didn't exist, but then realize - you're one too?
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We're talking reality anon, not some fable you read in elementry school. I read the same book.
I've asked several homeless people to walk checks at restarunts with me. They all declined because they were scared of going to jail. Most homeless people I've run across are waiting for God to save them.
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Yes, many have gotten an elbow to the face after tring to startl me.
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No, I've never hated flowers or couples kissing. Nor have I ever wished humanity non-exsistent.
But I have wished anonomous posters didn't exist.
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Fear is brought about in life aspects other than crime. Such as violence.