Fornits
Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: linchpin on May 24, 2005, 09:37:00 AM
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I have this dream where I wake up in these houses..and Im locking doors and dont know where I am ...and then on CNN I hear theres people from straight being murdered everywhere..Then Ill wake up a second ...fall back asleep...and be in another house..
someone was chasing me with a rusted pipe with nails sticking off it...odd huh?
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Jeeeeze!
May your days be joyfully challenging and your words artfully true
-- Ginger Warbis SMA, `00
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i dream i'm in straight, not all the time but damn 'nuff. There's been some strange insight come out of it, the dreamin' i mean. Straight come to represent so much heavy weight. Even in dreams straight does not always, only represent itself but sometimes is a symbol of the social authorities,which straight is only a smaller copy of. Know what i'm sayin'?
i used to have dreams that relived my time in there. Now i dream that i'm the age i am now and often times find myself doing or saying the things i really wanted to do and say at the time. Sometimes in my dreams i'm confronting exec. staff members who i thought were particularly sadistic. Sometimes i dream i'm standing up in group just telling the group to see whats happening, how we're all being controlled 'n' all. Sometimes crazier shit happens. A repression like that before i never knew. Straight has become an archetype in my consciousness. i dream that i'm either fighting it or runnin' from it. Sometimes i dream of people i knew in there. Sometimes they're ghosts.
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Well Ive been on Methadone most of my life..and it kept me relatively numb and "stable"
Since Ive come off it ... I feel paranoid, depressed, suicidal/homicidal fantasies, I dont know if its brain adjustment or If Im schizoid.
Ive done alot of methamphetamine and think that may have compounded it.
Granted Im not using methmaps now ..I feel this way when sober.
But yah the nightmares are new and recurring..they are terrifying and wake me up every 20 mins and I fall back asleep and the dream fucking re starts...or morphs..or continues..
Im like what the fuck....I cant even get a break from my fucked head when I sleep
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Yeah, i don't know what all that's like. i have some freinds who know that shit. But i know about the dreams. When i was in there i started having these paralyzing nightmares, in which i thought i was awake but i was actually sound asleep. There was totally no way i could determine that i wasn't awake. i thought i heard screams coming from the alley below the bedroom window of the host-home i was in at the time (in D.C.). i dreampt i was awake and lying in my bed completely aware of some fucked-up crime being committed in the alley. i struggled to move and respond but was paralyzed. i laid there and listened to the screams. It was fucked-up. There was nothin' i could do.
Ever since then i been havin' these dreams where i'm paralyzed but lucid, sometimes completely aware and sometimes only vaguely aware. Mostly they have been nightmares, but lately just insightful dreams. i know when they're going to come on and there is nothing that can be done to stop them once the grip is on. Sometimes i fall asleep suddenly and begin to dream right away. i know cause i wake up as soon as it starts to happen and then i check the clock. So usually it's w/in 2-5 minutes of falling asleep. i tried to fight it for about 15 years and then got tired and let it in close enough to deal w/it. Now i still have the same kind of dreams only i'm not so terrified i just try to let it just be what it is. Sometimes i have wild lucid dreams that flirt w/telepathy. i wonder ("I Wonder" - Blind Melon) if straight triggered some crazy mental shit or what.
Or is that the effects of the brainwash? i don't know what it all means.
Sometimes when i'm, fallin' asleep i begin to have auditory hallucinations. It sounds like corrugated steele being drug over limestone gravel. Thats only happened a few times. ...i dunno...
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yah that sounds trippy...sleep paralysis.
perhaps we are being overtaken by demonic forces in our sleep. :wave:
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yah but I did specifically hear the word Fornits on CNN ...and I got the impression that a mob was killing us one by one.
Yah I even get free CNN commentary running thru my dreams.."25 found murdered throughout the US today.."
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You simply need to do more drugs.
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On 2005-05-24 14:15:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
"You simply need to do more drugs."
You buyin? :silly:
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:lol: :lol: :lol:
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On 2005-05-24 14:15:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
"You simply need to do more drugs."
Good advice for everyone
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Leather face is now selected as my wall paper. I have had quite a few comments from co-workers; none of which have been positive. :lol: Thanks for the image!
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Awesome! If they give ya any shit tell em "Fuck you Im from Texas" even if you arent...
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On 2005-05-25 10:55:00, Anonymous wrote:
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On 2005-05-24 14:15:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
"You simply need to do more drugs."
Good advice for everyone"
just what i needed to hear...hahahhahaha.
:nworthy: :nworthy: :nworthy:
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Fuck hard drugs