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Messages - jeff belflower
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« on: August 01, 2001, 07:27:37 AM »
straight
I entered straight on Feb. 20, 1981. I didn't make it out of there for four damn hellish years. Dr. Newton was the leader back then. When he entered the room there was complete silence. Remember what would happen if you talked out in group. They would throw you to the ground. Get five of the biggest guys to sit on you, Then tap you on the chest smiling at you. Not to mention pulling your hair and throwing you against the wall. I was scared to death when i first got there. I complied and moved up to fourth phase, then they sent someone home with me, i am from orlando, for the weekend and my brother had some rock albums. When i got back to st. pete they blew me away and put me back a phase. Eventually I was started over. This was really the beginning of the end for me. I started to rock out to Zeppelin one day that was the beggining of my so called "misbehaving". I had to hear those goofy songs for four years straight. Zippadeedoodaa, zippadee ah, nine to nine, feeling fine. Every fucking day i put up with this. Remember after friday night open meetings somethimes they would keep you there until five in the morning yelling at you because Dr. Newton didn't like the way the open meeting went. Coming home, remember that shit. Needless to say I really learned to cuss good after four years there. They use to put you on a peanut butter diet if you were not progressing. Put you in an intake room with no light and no one allowed to talk or acknowledge your prescence. No talking behind groups back made it hard to talk to your parents about what really was happening because they were brainwashing them as well. Well time for me to wrap it up, heheh, comin home Peace and love, Jeff
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« on: November 01, 2001, 05:56:52 AM »
lifer
straight really @#%$ me up. I thought after I got out it would be over. My parents made sure it wasn't. I live life one day at a time, trying to escape from the horrors of Dr. Newton. I realize I will never outlive his demeaning ways. Maybe, one day, I will awake and forgive him. I never thought it would come to this. You know Al, his face is perhaps the devil in disguise. Remember, his son was a staff member, and his daughter was incarcerated. Remember Steve Mead, Paul Palmer, Terry Hodges, Troy Hyrons, ect........ Love, Peace, and Happiness
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« on: November 01, 2001, 05:46:14 AM »
straight incorporated in St. Pete
Straight Sucks
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« on: August 01, 2001, 04:43:54 AM »
Re: babies...
congratulations. I am glad that you are bringing a child to this earth who will know the truth about the abuse we went through. Maybe he will be a leader in the direction of peace and love. Keep him away from the evil Newton and I'm sure he will be a great kid. hehehe, Peace
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« on: December 01, 2001, 12:29:03 PM »
re straight
I stuck out the program for three and a half years. I graduated as a 7 stepper and stayed straight for over a year after I graduated. I was going to college full time and was in Phi Theta Kappa because I was putting alot of effort into school and really wanted to be successful. My parents made me write M.I.'s for the year after 7 stepping and they searched my room like good straight parents. I started to party a little bit smoking weed and drinking. My parents found some weed or something and booted me out of the house with no money or hope. I was around 21 years old and living at home, like I said I was going to school full time. After I got kicked out of home I really got depressed and hit rock bottom. I am 37, almost 38 years old now and basically am a straight failure. My family thinks I am really bad and they still love straight and their ideas. I lived in my car for a few years until I managed to do better. I hold resentment towards straight for brainwashing my family, and me. I could use some help, but it is hard to find people to help me because I feel hopeless.
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« on: November 01, 2001, 08:06:33 AM »
straight
Hey Mike, you remember me Jeff. I was in there from Feb. 81 until like 84 or something. I was a lifer there and hated it very much. They totally brainwashed my family into beleiving they were Gods. I really hate what they stand for. I am still looked at like an outcast from my family. To this day they bring straight up and talk it up. I am so f ckin tired of this hell hole but we endured it. and its after effects so far. write back and I'll talk to you perhaps later. I stayed at Rick's place for a little while, but then again, I was in there so long I stayed just about everywhere. I hate straight. Newton Sucks
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« on: August 01, 2001, 07:35:47 AM »
Re: still supporting straight...
It's been 20 years since i was in straight. My mom and dad still think it was the best thing for me. I still get treated like a newcomer when i visit my parents. I have the same goal as you, to eventually persuade my parents what really happened there. I spent four years there, I will never forget those bastards and what they did for me. Help me if you ever can persuade your mom and tell me how you did it. peace
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« on: December 01, 2001, 05:59:19 PM »
Straight Sucks Newton Dick
I was in the hellhole for three and a half shitty years. I got in there in Feb. of 1981, and didn't get out until sometime in 1984. I think I remember you before ya'll left for Virginia, but I am not sure. Were you in St. Pete for a little while. Your name sounds relatively formiliar. I still get reminded by my parents all the time that they tried to help me, and they love me. Why can't I be a straight robot they think. All those years trying to help you and look what you've done for yourself. After getting out of straight, so many years ago, I eventually started to be normal and hang out with old friends and get back to my life. My parents still to this day will search my room if I stay the night at their house. They still use straight tactics and as a result have made me crazy. Some 15 years ago finally they booted me out of their lives by getting a court order for me to move. I had been going to college and began to smoke a little weed here and there. Well, to me I was the devil, they booted me out with no money, and I was forced to live and sleep in my little V.W. beetle. I learned to hate my family even more than the Straight bullshit. Well, I guess I'm kind of carrying on a little. Sorry, I hold in alot of anger and resentment towards Straight. Even the name gives me the jitters. My best friend as a child went into a coma for three months while I was in Straight and I wasn't even notified until after he was dead. For some reason, a day doesn't go by that I don't feel as if Straight Staff is looking over my shouder. Some of my friends sued, but I didn't want to stir any waves at the time. I guess getting older and still having reaccuring nightmares has made me readjust my old stance. I feel like starting war against those fuckers that stole my life. P.S. sorry for carrying on a little, I just hate the thought of Straight.
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« on: November 01, 2001, 08:14:31 AM »
straight
I was in straight from feb. 81 until 84. I thought I would never get out of there. I was started over on 5th phase I split and was started over once. I have tried to block out straight from my life but, like a bad cough it keeps coming back. I still stay in touch with some friends from the program but, after over 20 years its hard to stay in touch with people. Remember all the rules, and being sat on.
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« on: August 02, 2001, 02:45:35 AM »
Re: i thought they closed all straights
I was put into the straight program in St. Pete on Feb. 20 of 1981. I was kept there until I was 18 and that was a whole four years. I was mentally tortured and also physically abused. My parents were just mentally tomented. I can't beleive that after all of the hell I suffered more straight's started. I had no idea it spread to the midwest and west coast. When i was there they were starting atlanta, cinncinatti and virginia programs. I figured that was all they would do. They really have a way of coaxing the parents to beleive that they are doing good. They started me over a bunch of times. I got to the point that I just thought this would be the rest of my life. When I got out I had no money and had to move back home. My parents searched my room and will do anything to prevent me from being a druggie. I had to move back home when I was 23 and it was like being in straight again. I basically lost my teenage years in this place. I can't beleive these people got away with the crap they did.
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« on: August 01, 2001, 11:05:34 PM »
Re: Augusta, Gone
I'm glad that hell hole is gone, I am from Atlanta originally, lived there for the first four years of my life. My mom was born in Lithia Springs, when I use to go up there my parents would drive me by the augusta straight and brag about how it was there. I hate my parents for putting me in St. Pete program. I spent 4 hellish years there and still at age 37 I am reminded about how great straight was. Straight sucks, zippideedoo daaa
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