My career is to help children... I could set up a 501c3 and get donations, BUT, I prefer not too. I have a few degrees in foreign languages and in communication. I have a degree in cuisine from Paris France.
I chose not to do the day to day grind so that I can follow my life path.
I believe I survived to bear witness, and to end the caos that SEED/STRAIGHT started. I gave my life to the universe years ago and it seems to be ok w/out the sociatal "career" factor.
What is a career anyway?
A daily commute to an office? A job w/benefits [sp](most people don't have benefits). A position that other people see as acceptable?
I dont think its important.
If you are seeking the DAMAGE STRAIGHT DID TO ME, then ask that.
As far as I am concerned, if not for Straight, I probably would have ended up as a bored housewife in a bugoise lifestyle like the minons that I know fron my era.
Would I prefer it? I dont know. I do know that I could never be complaciant today not after STRAIGHT. Not with what I have experienced, not with what I know.
So again. I have a career, I have goals and I have a life. Its just not conventional.
But who wants conventional.
I've traveled the world. Ive meet amazing people along the way. Ive gained so much. If had to do it all over again the only thing I would change is the abuse rape and torture I experienced at the hands of STRAIGHT.
When I analyse it... I see...
1. Straight tried to bend my mind. I was a fighter, I kept my mind and I suffered for it.
2. Straight destroyed my relationship with my family.
3. Straight destroyed my faith in humanity.
4. Straight made it harder for me to achive my goals by refusing me the education I deserved.
I could be far more advanced if I hadn't needed to start out on my own at 17, no diplome and a 7th grade education.
5. Because of what I suffered at straight, I have nightmares, nightsweats, PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, clausterphobia and a plethera [sp]
of other symptoms.
I deal with it. I dont take meds. I dont drink it away and I dont see shrinks. I just deal. like everyone else I try to get on and I try to make sense of it all.
So there it is.
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