Hyya Marnie
I also remember you. I remember you as being a kind and gentile person in the midst of vicious bitches. I remember thinking to myself about the ?good cop?bad cop? scenario and if that was a conscious act?or if in fact you were a decent human being, that I thought you were.
In my minds eye, I can envision you and Amy Wright/Murphy leading group?I can remember Amy simply over powering you?as if she was queen bee or something. I can remember Amy being exceptionally cruel to us, especially the girl? side?Yeah, we guys had it rough, no doubt (with Dave Crock Criss Casslor and Doug Heminger) but I used to think to myself that the girls really had it rough with Amy.
Now as an adolescent male?Amy really was a striking, almost imposing female. We used to call her Amazon Amy. I also remember that she was an important lesson to me at the time. That lesson being, ?A pretty face don?t mean a pretty heart?. (Sorry for stealing lyrics to articulate what I could not?at the time) She was simply a mean and cruel bitch.
I also recall, because of her status and her appearance she was a huge influence on the girls. Two in particular, Wanda Miton and Leslie Fetrow. I recall Wanda following her around like a puppy and how she would always look at Amy with adoration. It always seemed that Wanda was trying to emulate Amy?but that was silly, Wanda seemed to have her own special streak of cruelty, but Amy?s influence was felt and observed long after Amy left and of course Wanda stayed.
After I read your most recent post yesterday I recalled a time, and at first I thought you were involved?but it was actually Liz Cassidy (very early on in her tenure as staff) She pulled me out of group and lead me to an office were my parents and Laura Morgan were waiting. I thought I was going to be pulled (a brief but powerful sense of relieve was experienced) As it turned out, I was informed my grand father had past away. I was informed that I would not be allowed to attend the funeral, in Savannah Ga. The justification for not allowing me to attend his funeral was the concern that I may have run. Which in all honesty I had not even really seriously considered, as I hadn?t been locked up that long as of that time. So, I thought it absurd that my running was even considered by others, before I had considered it. But believe me, I started to think about running shortly after that experience. I didn?t run until third phase, while at school?it was just the safest thing to do.
My grand fathers death affected me for along time and the fact that I was not allowed to attend his funeral still infuriates me till this day. Infact, I have yet to visit his grave site, and I have only this year begun to re-establish connections with cousins that later went thru Straight as well. Perhaps this year at the family reunion I will finally visit his grave?and possibly I will be able to put a lot of this to rest.
I am glad you are back Marnie from your hiatus from fornits. I joined the forum shortly after you stepped back from the site. Like others have said, you have a lot of insight into a world that we feared and despised?the world of the staff member. I don?t know that you owe us anything?however, I know I would be thankful for any insight that you may have to offer.
It is odd to me how I can harbor such anger and rage at staff in general, but to someone whom I thought was a decent human being, that seemed truly compassionate, such as yourself?I have no anger or ill will.
