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[Anonymous]

wow that is REALLY rough, the anxiety you have. peace and love, and watch what you eat incl sugar and caffeine and get daily exercise and  I mean extended aerobic exercise that gets your heart pumping. It's a natural mood elevator. Or I guess some women I have met swear by yoga. All those emotions you have are physical sensations, they are in your muscles etc, so work on that level too for best results.

[Scarstruck]

The only thing that ever helped me feel normal or ok...was large shots of Tar Heroin.
 I think I was a heroin addict long before I was born ..The soul put into my body is a heroin addict.

 The sour pungent odor of matches and vinegar (best way I can describe heroin smell) and watching my blood jack back into the syringe and mingle with the dope before I drive it home.
 

 But alas the monkey got bigger than what I could live with.


 Methadone has the same effect.So I get the mood stabalizer effect from it ... I dont too much miss the needle though.
 When the veins collapsed it turned into a 3 hour sticking/bleeding ordeal to get a shot in my veins.
 Skin popping Tar heroin is a bad idea..(try it and youll see why =D)
 Anyway thank god for methadone mantenance. I wont be breaking into your house for a fix..or sticking a loded gun in your face in a strip club parking lot for your wallet.


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Crumbling world falls through my hands
In my mouth taste bitter sands.
Grass is burning, pulse is slow.
Drip by drip my backwards growth... crawl.
Fade to hate.
And I'll die within my fade[ This Message was edited by: Scarstruck on 2004-10-15 06:14 ]