Man I am having a horrible weekend...the creepy crawley is invading my mind..
I feel like Im gonna have another breakdown..Luckily I have met someone that loves me and that I love and she kinda keeps me together.
We are trying to take things slowly and have a healthy relationship..As I have not had one in ..5 years..
There arent very many good people out there anymore...and every single woman I dated or whatever since my divorce was substandard, liar, crazy, or just plain uuugh...
Ahh bad relationships.. (except one, Katy Edwards, whom is still a very good friend...shes the only ex I am friends with)
Im so very picky and choosy of whom I associate with....and I cannot be compatible with someone that has lots of problems (Drug addicts, alcoholics, mental probs, eating disorders, sex addicts *they cant be faithful* etc ad nauseum)
because I have lots of problems and need someone grounded for things to work.
My family is destroyed and I have hardly any worthwhile friends to speak of..
So in times like this Im glad I have this person..
Seems like sometimes I just wake up and feel like my life is suffocating me and I just dont wanna be awake or alive...I wanna crawl in a hole and die..
And talking about it does no good this is an unstoppable negative force
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http://http://www.survivingthesystem.comI drained my heart, I burned my soul
I tore my core to stop the growth
I pray to dying space, to cover me in snow
Im dying I hope you're dying too
[ This Message was edited by: Scarstruck on 2004-07-04 09:54 ]