OK all you catz and freakettes, I've done read the last 6 pages in their entirety, still wondering why. FIRST- lemme say that the obvious freakin reason, man, that the names were put up in the first place is the same reason I came here, cause I was there, wanna see if I recognise anyone and if anyone recognises me. I never got a chance to REALLY talk to anyone in there, it was forbidden. Like, what kinda music ya dig? Hendrix? right on! My first instict seein this site, before I read this string, was, where is everybody? So even though I see all the points made, I find it hard to believe that our little stroll down memory lane is gonna affect anyone outside this forum, DNC or whatever. I'd say lets mention so n so, 'cause ya never know how ya just might hook up with them. The names were also simply a list, does anyone remember them? It wasn't derogatory, or anything. Christ!
Anyway, y'all just took me on a hardcore memory trip. 16 years and I've never met anyone who was also in there, then to stumble on this. I'll be 32 in Sept. so that was half my life ago. Every once in a while I'll be falling asleep and dream about what it would be like to go back in time, knowing what I know now. Right from the intake, telling everyone what was who. Yeah man, I point out every little flaw in their doctrine, wich is motivation by fear. All in all I get everyone in there to say "yeah, what the fuck, fuck this place". But basically I'd romantisise putting staff fuckers in their place.
I had nightmares for a couple years where I'd wake up having thought I was back in that place. 4 days short of a year in there and I never got off 1st phase. I think I was also the only person not to get restrained. When I got out, everyone said I was yellow, that beautiful flourescent tan I got in there! My Dad finally withdrew me, and I went to AA meetings and stayed sober for 8 1/2 years. Truth is, same reason I never advanced, is that I only smoked pot for 6 months prior to going in, and drank even less. Hell, I was 16! So when I turned 25 and got sick of all the AA gurus, and realizing I never had a problem in the first place, I did some field testing. Still just smoke a little herb, drink a little, but I never go out of my way for either. At 25 I had to figure out what kinda beer I liked! Life is good, and they said I'd die! And I believed it! LOL! Sorry I wrote a freakin book, dig you catz later...
Tom Marshall