you know when you break up in a relationship?...you need closure? if you dont know why someone dumped you, or why you dumped someone, their mind is all fucked up about it? well, i think going to visit elan, like you said will clarify most of the deep scarey thoughts. as a more matture 27 year old woman, (lady) i feel that "ELAN WORLD" will seem minute, compared to the images i have created in the beginning about it in my mind, and about the scarey glamorization piled on elan since, I left (refused to return, on a home visit)....oh and for that anon- poster: I dont feel that going back to elan, to visit, is out of a thought of "ugh maybe I d be dead" if I didnt go..I wont lie, of cource I have thoguth to myself, If it wasnt for Elan, maybe the decisions I was making, without guidance, could have caused me to have been raped, or dead. But, elan was not the right move for my parents to make With no research in where they were sending their (babe) ha..(Sorry) their daughter i meant.... Was wrong. A outpatient center, or something else would have been addequate. I never used drugs. Just pot and tried a couple things (but hated it) i was never someone that DID stuff, to be liked. I wasnt permiscuous...I didnt need to go there..I didnt have those "Women, Divorce or death & dying ISSUES" i was just a rebellious teenager, "Lost in a big World"///
