There is a difference between going thru something, looking back, learning from it and moving forward than wallowing in your childhood problems and using them for an excuse 20 or 30 years later.
Absent of mental illness, there is no reason to be stuck in that horrible time for the rest of your life.
Good job Lezli. I too went thru a horrible time after I left the program. Lost my family, my trust in authority, couldn't socialize with people properly because I had learned that confrontational style or communication,had self confidence issues and was angry and didn't even understand why.
I do now. To be that way 30 years later would be the ultimate tradegy, that is, to be unable to move past that crap.