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« on: April 28, 2004, 04:58:00 AM »
This is a truly scary twisted sick fucking thing that we have all been through.  Anyone, who sits and reads the posts on this site will realized that we have so many different memories, and different stories.  Some of us remember things so differently than others.  The human mind can only take so much, and Elan has put my soul through a ringer.  No one can be trusted.  I have trusted many people that I have met on Elan Alum and in other elan forums.  They are mostly sickened people.  Ken is holding onto his shit by the skin of his teeth right now, and he will be exposed any day.  I wish to hell we could all stop this crazyness.  I just pray that the doors of Elan will one day close forever.  I have this dream of wrecking balls crashing through the very rooms where I once stood in front of 50 screaming brainwashed children, all scared. Crashing through the walls of the rooms where I was blasted for things that I could not humanly control. I want to see the Baseball field and the soccer fields ripped apart, in memory of physically being pushed past the point where I could breath or even see.    I dream about those hideous beds being thrown into a landfill so than no one will ever have to wake up with a sore neck and back day after day for 3 years, and function as COF or COD or SOF on no sleep.  Spinning around in circles, functioning these pointless jobs, feeling ill from the disgusting food, feeling sick from the filthy air.  Sitting so close to each other that you can feel breath all over you. The breath of the girl who just talked about raping her younger sister in womens issues.  Wrecking balls bashing through the bathrooms where we repeatedly took 3 minute long freezing cold showers with no privacy or room to move.  Breaking through the dorm walls where I once layed in bed crying and holding myslef for three hours because I was not allowed to simply urinate.  Sitting in those dark rooms with the lights buzzing day in and day out.  Listening to the stories of ruined souls, ruined lives.  Corrupt staff treating us like we were Jews in the Holocaust.  Staff being hired that sexually harrased me.  I dream that elan will be shut down, broken down, discarded, and rid from this earth.  Someday in the future no elan residents will exist, we will all have passed on and there will be nothing left at the end of that stomach turning winding road. Maybe a family will build a summer home down by the lake.  And relax in front of the water.  There will be no zones, no house line up, no headcounts.  People should be treated like people.  I was a fucking sardine for 3 years. If anyone can say that Elan is good, or right I cannot understand how we are the same species.  Joe Ricci is dead.  Now can't we let his hideous money making evil hearted scheme of a fascist boot camp be put to rest.  I don't want to lose on more night of sleep thinking about the images that creeped out of the walls while i was forced to stare into a corner.  Or How I conformed and yelled, I yelled soooo much.  At people who never deserved it.  We were at elan because we needed guidance.  We needed love.  We needed help.  What we got is a very bleak future of rotten memories and feelings of worthlessness.  The memories of Marc Rosenburg telling me I am nothing but a whore, how worthless I am, how no one will ever love me.  How I am at the bottom of society, how the world doesn't need me.  What a great man he was.  A 15 year old girl should b=never hear that.  The emotional abuse was too much for me, and I want so hard to let go.
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« Reply #1 on: April 28, 2004, 06:49:00 AM »
To the writer of the previous post:
Your short essay above  is a very good piece of work. It is with the utmost respect and deepest empathy that i ask you to contact our office at Eot Productions.
 (JE2Photo@aol.com) or telephone: (215 643 5503)
We would like to speak to you regarding the sensitive and  eloquent recounting of your memories at The Elan School, posted here.
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« Reply #2 on: April 28, 2004, 09:18:00 AM »
Art and Jordon,are you still looking for Amanda Hugginkiss or are you settlin for each other
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« Reply #3 on: April 28, 2004, 09:46:00 AM »
and as usual...out from under a rock comes the childish stupidity that this site is known for. proves the adage: No good deed goes unpunished.
If you air out your soul here, surely someone will choose to stomp on it. You people disgust me.
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« Reply #4 on: April 28, 2004, 10:32:00 AM »
Hey, whoever posted this, I want to thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. I must say I'm literatelly in tears after reading it because it's so true. I've learned a whole lot from being in Elan, but everything you said about the pain and the injustices that you've experienced... I've felt it too. And so did most ppl here. We didn't deserve to be treated that way. But don't hold on to the pain, you gotta let it go, dude. It's in the past. You DESERVE to be happy afterall. It still feels nice to talk about it, I'm sure you have plenty of stories, please do share them with us. I'm interested in hearing them, I love the way you put your words together, you sound very sincere and insightful. Well, if you want to e-mail me, please do so (m_a_r_i_n_a@hellokitty.com).

   Peace!
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« Reply #5 on: April 28, 2004, 10:45:00 AM »
What a story!  Geez, as bad as some people had it in Elan, I always knew the women had it worse.  That's what happens when you make amateur individuals therapy gods.

I feel horrible for you.  I hope you find peace soon.
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« Reply #6 on: April 28, 2004, 11:01:00 AM »
Peter how the fuck did u ever figure that the women had it worse? Remember there were 48 males and like 15 women in da house.

That story was great, so great that I started sweating and having flashbacks as I was reading it.

Ur story drew a perfect picture of that HELL HOLE!!!! :skull:  :skull:  :skull:
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« Reply #7 on: April 28, 2004, 11:13:00 AM »
Yeah, but the women treated each other like crap.  Also, the way it was set up, Elan was a very sexist place.  Guys were usually favored and women were degraded -- probably more than guys.  That's just what I saw, anyway.

There was this one girl, Jamie Ungar, who used to get horribly degrading general meetings.  I'll never forget those.  I e-mailed with her a couple years ago though and she's doing OK.
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« Reply #8 on: April 28, 2004, 11:30:00 AM »
"his hideous money making evil hearted scheme of a fascist boot camp"

My thoughts exactly    Jim S
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« Reply #9 on: April 28, 2004, 03:14:00 PM »
speak for your own house peter.
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« Reply #10 on: April 28, 2004, 03:18:00 PM »
man why cant nazi learn how to spell its JORDAN with and a , u putz
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« Reply #11 on: April 28, 2004, 09:12:00 PM »
god bless you sweatheart, my eyes have never been so privy to such heartfelt, genuine words.. well put, to speak for most of the normal, sane people in this community, ur message is heard loud and clear...  :nworthy:
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« Reply #12 on: April 29, 2004, 02:25:00 AM »
Hey the thing I wrote on here about Elan was just kind of a bunch of feelings pouring out at like 3 am.  I really don't want to be in the documentary because I don't want to be part of anything that will make me feel icky. Its really not that great, if you wanna use quotes go ahead.
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« Reply #13 on: April 29, 2004, 07:29:00 AM »
i'd think that being in elan was a whole lot ickier than being n a movie about it! i wanna thank you, whoever you are..you gave ME the courage to speak up. im going to be interviewed along with the rest in june. thank  you!
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« Reply #14 on: April 29, 2004, 08:09:00 AM »
This site is full of drama queens and homosexuals
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