On 2004-03-01 16:59:00, Therion wrote:
"No...Im just bullshitting you..
You annoyed me so I was playing against a general "anon poster" fear..
That is...after all why people wont use their name..
But I do have some serious hatred for alot of people...Alot I just don't care about either way.
And a few are friends..
See I am wrapped up in my own mind....Im in a little dark room made of stone ...and Im wearing my fingers down trying to scratch my way back out..
But Theres a small crack forming in the stone..
perhaps I can keep digging long enough...
But the urge to just sit and rest and say fuck it is always there..
Pay me no mind..Im not gonna do anything to anyone..
The fucked up thing about Straight is we were all Victims and Abusers at the same time..
Most all the physical and verbal abuse was done by the Kids to the kids...and yes, of course, they planned it to work like this..
If you guys managed to move on..and have good lives and jobs I am happy for you...(OK actually Im so caught up in my bullshit that I could care less about some strangers lives)
But apparantly I succeeded in getting under peoples skin..
Look how many "Therion" variation user names there are..
I doubt anyone on any board has had there name
used by so many in such a short time..
Dont hate me....Im only doing what you taught me as a child..
I learned it from you...
I am your creation....a mutant you taught to psychologically destroy others...
You dont like it when I come out of the cage and work on you a little bit?
I mean its all in good fun right?
This is how we treat people we love , right?
I need to make you feel this way...its for your own good...or you will die....REMEMBER?
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I'm sick and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me away
...god please take me away
Resistance futile ,suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy
selfish needs fuck the deities
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-03-01 17:38 ]
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-03-01 17:39 ]"
But letting what happened to you as a child, predict your future and life, is the most pitiful excuse of all, and that's all it is, an excuse.
Only you can decide to be different... To change. If you believe you're hopeless, then you will be. It's up to you, because you
AREN'T a victim anymore, so stop acting like one.
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Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it with the handle of anxiety or the handle of faith. - Henry Ward Beecher
You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war.
--Albert Einstein