« previous next »
Pages: [1]   Go Down

Author Topic: Kill me please  (Read 2622 times)

0 Members and 1 Guest are viewing this topic.

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« on: February 29, 2004, 12:40:00 AM »
Anyone? Anyone? I know theres got to be some people that hate me out there..I promise to tell God I gave you permission and to let you slide..

You see I am a miserable lonely fuck and pray for my untimely death every few hours..

I dont believe in suicide though..and would never harm myself..

This is why I need you good people to help me..

we could set it up like a hunting accident..
Ill put on a bear suit....

You see I am a loser..and have no friends or loved ones anymore..
 I also find life to be dull and joyless...
 I hate being alone but always am....
 I am really tired of the struggle..
 Life to me has become a game (Picture yourself in a room playing monopoly by yourself for 5 years straight with no break...ok thats how I feel about life) that I am tired of playing..

 Is there none among you with the means or gumption to end my lonely pathetic existance??!!




no but seriously..
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Froderik

  • Newbie
  • *
  • Posts: 7547
  • Karma: +10/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #1 on: February 29, 2004, 12:43:00 AM »
Dude..what gives? You were sitting on top of the world last time I checked...what's up??
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #2 on: February 29, 2004, 12:45:00 AM »
Everything crashed down on me again today..
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #3 on: February 29, 2004, 01:29:00 AM »
Losses, losers and more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen
behind the doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls
falling down pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments
went well deserved by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness
walk from me everything systematically

Pain misery distress dismal know where depressed idiot failure
In me......calling......loser......man I'm the
Loser......loser.....loser......in me......who I am....in me....

Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside
of me,
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside
of me,
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me


Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun
I'm bored in a life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross
you worship life is loss look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake
up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream
Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of
me your taunting I wake up

Come on youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live


_________________
Why does everyone feel like my enemy?
Don't want any part of depression or darkness, I've had enough...
Sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone
****FOREVER INCREASING MY POST COUNT****

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-28 22:31 ]
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #4 on: February 29, 2004, 01:47:00 AM »
Every time I think things are getting better
it turns out to be an illusion..

Im such a fucking fool...


Go ahead I know you wanna fucking laugh..I dont give a fuck anymore, say what you want..

_________________
You know it's bad, some may say sad, a hangover is
Inspiration. Like a junkie I hurt for it. A bad trip, the
Emptiness. I never sleep, or always sleep a lack of
Fulfillment to me is me. The big picture.

****FOREVER INCREASING MY P

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-28 22:48 ]
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Anonymous

  • Newbie
  • *
  • Posts: 164653
  • Karma: +3/-4
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #5 on: February 29, 2004, 01:57:00 AM »
dude...what is going on????   :???:
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged

Offline Cayo Hueso

  • Posts: 1274
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #6 on: February 29, 2004, 02:08:00 AM »
sorry, that was me...what's up??

I am not a vegetarian because I love animals;  I am a vegetarian because I hate plants.  
-- A. Whitney Brown

« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
t. Pete Straight
early 80s

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #7 on: February 29, 2004, 02:23:00 AM »
Thats the bad part..

I dont feel its uum respectful to talk about it publically

Yet theres noone to talk to..

Just trust I am in a bad place..very bad..

Like...cant even see straight Im so fucking upset
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #8 on: February 29, 2004, 02:31:00 AM »
See its times like this I know I can never go off MMT..

I am having the must fucked up thoughts..

It really takes alot to get me to this point but when I am I lose all fucking rationale..
And my own life/well being becomes trivial..

I feel like someone rammed a fucking hot poker in my heart :scared:
Chest is all fucking tight...
 Had to dose my methadone 6 hours early and roll a fat joint just to get out of the "Hang myself" frame of mind..

How the fuck have I been on this planet for 30 years but when stuff happens I have not ONE FUCKING PERSON TO TALK TO???
WHats fucking wrong with me??
What is so fucking horrible about me that people treat me like I have the plauge..

(Great...now here come the "pity friend " e mails and PMs) *Dont bother I will never trust anyone ever again

Im just fucked in the head right now Im fucking..
I cant think straight :scared:  :scared:
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed

Offline Cleopatra2U

  • Posts: 118
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
    • http://360.yahoo.com/cleopatra2u
Kill me please
« Reply #9 on: February 29, 2004, 03:49:00 AM »
Did some asshole eat your Thin Mints too?   :flame:
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
he trouble with trouble is it starts out as fun.

Offline Therion

  • Posts: 927
  • Karma: +0/-0
    • View Profile
Kill me please
« Reply #10 on: February 29, 2004, 03:16:00 PM »
OK Im better today...Funny how things dont seem so bad in the daylight isnt it?

Nah Im just going through some bullshit right now..
But last night I was like fucked up emotionally sick and had noone to talk to..
Im so fucking needy...men in our society arent supposed to be like that..

But I feel more like bits and pieces of a person rather than a whole entire functioning person..

"He is the speedball mannequin..He cant look too sad and stand"

I go through so much fucked up shit and I just dont know whether its me making bad decisions or

it really is  other people and things..

Or both....

I cannot...well I can but mabey its a "should not" or just "will not" get into details about my latest speedbump...because it would be petty and I dont know that it would do good anyway..
   I know it wouldnt..

Anyway I know most of you couldt give a fuck about me or how I feel (And I dont expect you to)
And the rest of you enjoy seeing me heartbroken/hurt/depressed or whatever..

To the first half : Sorry to waste 3 minutes of your life...

To the 2nd half: Enjoy it while it lasts, motherfuckers...trust me it wont
« Last Edit: December 31, 1969, 07:00:00 PM by Guest »
Logged
aving the way for the new breed of bad seed
Pages: [1]   Go Up
« previous next »