Good post Juston, and yes Justice is just around the corner, what year were you at this hell hole? me the 70's, I do not know how long that place was open when I was dragged in there, just remember that it was dark smokey ,thick too and dreadful, you know I have been thinking about everything, and it is something that a young thirteen year old girl( who never did drugs nor was ever in trouble) had to be beaten tied up I mean hog tied rolled up in a rug and dragged in by at least 6 much huger adults,( while they did this I managed to get free and ran while there, only to run to a fence that had been bob wired at top, I almost got over the fence when I got stuck on it,( I did not know bob wire could do such damage, I also never had to run so fast in my life and climb over a huge ass fence as that one was) okay now I am hanging upside down and tearing clothes and getting hurt cut up and also now I was being pulled off and kicking and struggling scared shitless the whole time, that was my experience the first day, not to mention now I am being dragged in and by many huge men, men are now holding me down,( who later on in life I find out were ex cons druggies rapist, heroin using prostitutes, etc....) nice huh, fucked up is more like it) I was trying to remember why my mother would have to go to such extreme to get a child into a place with her,( she was told that was the only way)( I guess that that was part of the so called experiment) because they were really dumb had they just told me it was a blimp hanger I would have walked right in, they must have seriously convinced so many parents to do this, see I was the bait, once I was in it was easier to get my brother and sister in, but why the dragging and scarring and hurting mentally,( and yes at this point now I am injured crying screaming myself ) because they had the upper hand as parents, and I did listen to my parents back then so I do not understand the kidnapping part, if you all had seen how tiny I was then,and I will post some pictures when my sister gets here to show you all how tiny for one I was, and also to show you how much my sisters and brothers loved each other and how happy we were before all this crap went on,all the pictures of us as children back then always smiling, and I am happy I have these pictures to show how happy we all were till that horrible period in our lives, see because within a period you will see that I split that place on own, and never been back,( nor did I go back to my family, I knew I would just be sent back to that horrible place, and school was out of question, because everyone that went to school also started over, I was not having that crap any more in my life) that was after being started over and me realizing I was never going to be allowed to escape with my freedom freedom meaning my soul, well now I am beaten sitting but trying with all my might to remove the kidnappers from my arms and legs, this is all done after coming home from school, I was about to go to my swim team when this all took place, yes I was into swimming big time, what I loved, I was on 2 swim teams, and did gymnastics, including high diving, I could dive off a 12 meter that's how well I was getting at diving, till this crap happened to me, plus it was what made me go to school because I was not into school too much just the sports part, but if I wanted the sports I had to also do the general studies as well, so sports are a great way to keep kids in school, well that was all taken from me, nice huh,not too many kids back then were into the sports that I was, it was more hanging out with kids then sports back then, but I was really focused more on sports, me having asthma swimming also helped me open lungs up as well, no one ever even knew I had asthma, except my family, I will say being active does help open lungs up, can ask my mom too, I never would take pills of any kind ever nothing I was too into being healthy, I was even a vegetarian , just trying to give all a look at what my activities were back then, I had no time for anything other then swimming and gymnastics, in fact I stayed hours a day in the gym room at school daily after school to practice.I was quiet at school did not hang out with but maybe 2 souls back then, Nancy who is still my best girl, she saw what I went through, I remember going back to school and being told I could not talk to her because she was my past, my past, she was a straight a student that before that place would help me with my school work, she was the best thing in my life had always been, it is true that most were into clicks and shit, I was not, I was just a kid too.Imagine being told that you no longer can hang out with your best friend whom you grew up with, knowing she never did drugs either and was one of the highest levels of any student in that school, well past, I would never have listened to anyone when it came to Nancy, trust me there, I knew she was my friend true friend for life, I guess when I look at my past, I see how strong a soul I really am, true friends stay together through thick and thin, and Nancy she was always there for me,( as I for her) her father was a chief of police, and mother worked with the school board, gee I sound like I hung with the worst kind , needless to say, I told my girlfriend I had had enough, I was so skinny back then after coming home from that place that even she was frighten for me,( she was so worried she would bring me food from her home and sit and eat with me) I finally had to bid farewell to everyone, the thirteen year old girl had seen and witnessed so much at that horrible place that she knew she was not going to be going back to her home as a child again,( in other words I now run away from my mothers home) I now made my own decision to live on own and never to see my family again, I now was on the streets, and was learning to survive on own, I would go to my friends sometimes, I found a job immediately at some pizza place some place in skylake mall, no one knew I was there, I worked daily and had money in no time, in fact the owner could not believe I was 18( I was almost 14 now) and well he did not care because he never had anyone work so hard , so he just let it go, they were like my new family at this point, my family never knew I was there.Time goes by fast, but the working kept me busy, and the money made a difference, I was now on own and I knew it, but I was always frightened scared that someone would turn a corner one day and take me away, back to that dreadful place, children should not have to go through this at such a young age, I am lucky I made it, but I will tell you this, the things I saw in that place were far worse then anything I had witnessed and seen on the outside, and I would have worked round the clock which I did and let you throw pizzas at me all day long to stay out of that hell hole. I do remember missing my family I had once known, and my activities especially swimming, I was no longer ever going to be able to be a young girl again, may days being a child were taken from me in more ways then anyone can imagine, but ohhhhhhhh, the freedom, it was bliss that I had never known and would truly remember the rest of my life. ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: ::unhappy:: :peace: