Hmmm. Open to my castigations? Calling your opinion "dopey" is a castigation? I don't think so....
Nevertheless, what I was actually referring to is that you hide behind the anonymous login. You know who I am, and you clearly think you know about my life. I don't know how other people are, but I avoid taking advice from people who don't choose to identify themselves. C'mon - I am available here, and if you want to, you can find me in person. My email is there, my full name is in this forum, I am in the phone book and I make it easy by pointing out I live in Brooklyn. If you have such conviction in what you are writing, then take pride in it and put your name up here.
And speaking of what you think you know: "used to have a dick?" Uhh; still do. And still have my original vaginal canal, and everything else I had. I was born XXY, a genetic birth defect, and I have a mix of primary and secondary gender characteristics. In the hospital my body was modified to accentuate the male aspects of my external genitals, hide the female aspects, and I was never told. I had to find all that out after years of depression and suicidal tendencies, and after Newton fucked with my brain.
FYI: I was never confused about my gender - I was female, knew it from early childhood, and told everyone until I was forced to shut up by my folks. So for years I paid the price for everyone else being uncomfortable with the fact that my body was different.
I should note that your mention of "homosex" is interesting. Are you implying I am transgendered because of sex with men? Or are you further pointing out that I am a deviant because I have sex with women now? Not sure what my sexual orientation has to do with has my gender, but you seem awfully certain that they are interrelated.
I will refute that I am a confused individual, though. I cannot think of a period in my life that I have been happier with what is I am doing. In ten days I am moving across the country to Seattle to be with my new lover and to play guitar with a group of people whom I love a lot, my family and I get along very well (hardly a week has gone by for the last few years that we are not together), and I am financially secure. Life is very good for me, and I can spiritually acknowledge that it is not of my doing - I am a blessed person.
But I am not mad at you. Pray if you like - I am flawed, no doubt, and I can always use the prayers.
Kathy