Friend, and I do mean friend, while your anger is most understandable to me. I cant help but think that your suffering is somewhat selfimposed You see, I, unlike many others, have been permenently effected by dicisions made by "groupies" under newtons ways. Unfortunately my life was and will be radically altered. However, there is hope! One important principle that I`ve learned and would like yo pass on to you is "love your enemies." I know,I know F-THAT! believe me friend, the master knows HIS stuff! I can tell you it works! just try, try
to pray for the ones you hate,try for two weeks. If it doesn`t work you are the exception. Counselling can help you for sure,BUT, STAY AWAY FROM THE "CULT THERAPISTS" OR THE ONES THAT JUST KEEP DIGGING.I`ve found that to only accentuate the resentment.The idea is to live and learn and moveon! God bless, -friend