FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im breaking down im fucking serious i cant stand this shit anymore. this place is killing me. fuck i cant take it any more i just wana fucking end it all. I am miserable from the moment i wake up to when i goto sleep. i constantly feel like shit i have teachers and students all over me treating me like shit i cant stand these confrontations IM FUCKING SICK OF IT!!!!!!!! can i do anything right or am i just a comlete fucking fuck up!!!!!!! im traped and im losing it i want to end my life thats how bad this place is
Trust me, the confrontations are the easiest part. You appear to still be at least of sane mind about the place.
Get out while you can, because sooner or later you'll start making concessions, because it is just so damn difficult to keep up your integrity and still survive, psychologically speaking (and I'm NOT talking about the Hyde type of "integrity" here).
Soon you'll feel obliged to allow that they've got a point on some particular aspect, and then another one, and then another one... and then the love-bombing will begin to get under your skin, and you'll start to believe that they actually care...
And by the time it's some other poor sod's turn on the hot seat, gettin' screwed to the gills for some perceived character flaw or petty misdeed, you'll believe -- along with the rest of the school -- that they actually had it coming to them, and that public humiliation and confrontation is good for their "character."
The hard part comes after you're outta there. I figure people generally take at least ten years trying to process "the meaning of Hyde School" for every year they spend in that place. This, presuming there wasn't some traumatic episode that happened to you while you there, and which happens with far greater frequency than they would have you believe.
Should this last circumstance be your unfortunate lot, you will soon discover just how much they "care." Because they don't. Your parents are no longer paying the tuition bill.
