I too have many emotional and physical scars from the program. I have many nightmares, and it haunts me. Many people tell me that I'm not that person anymore either, but it's hard to forget. How do you forget 4 years of being told everyday that you're worthless. Some of us had it harder than others...I know you had it hard. I hope your emotional scars will one day heal over and you can play better tapes in your head...tapes that tell you you're a good person and that you're worthwhile and that you deserve the best, because you do...we all do. And if anyone deserves to suffer, it's the Newtons. I was your newcomer a few times and you were kind and compassionate...I'm glad to see Newton didn't kill that. You sound like a survivor.
