From the endless abuse at Straight to the physical disabilities as a result of the torture, my life was over when i walked in the door. No credit because of endless medical problems by 18. Always had to rely on Dad to help from time to time who just continued the mental abuse calling it my fault to spite all the evidence of what they did there which he refused to read. I guess he felt he had the right to continue the mental abuse just because he helped pay some bills all of which were the semblers fault. So now 25 plus years later it still reaches into my living room and when i have a trigger my son and i argue for a bit only for me to feel angry that they can still reach in my home and effect me or when i get off the phone with Dad after his mental abuse wondering how long must this go on. I didn't do it. I had no choice. I was forced in. I had no say so in the damage they did to me physically and now disabled have no say so in having to rely on my dad so i have to take it. Well truth be told i cant anymore. I know maybe the other survivors will rake me over the coals or perhaps start a fight with each other as these boards often do. I just wanted to say, I hope you all fair better than I. I pray for you all. I wish justice for you all. I just can't take another day. I havent posted here in a long time and have no idea why i am now. My life has no choices , no freedom, no independance, I have no criminal record, no drug record and work in public service. I worked so hard to prove I was not what they swore we would be , druggies or in jail. It was all for not. No matter what they can still reach out and step into your house, and the proxy abuse through parents is unbareable. So , I wish you all the best. We will meet another time in what i hope to be a better place.
I hope your happy Mel. Your life legacy is that of destroying children.
