"My question is this all a self fulfilling prophecy that was implanted in me subliminally or was it just the natural course of progression due to the disease of addiction?"
I am going to share part of a Seinfeld shows dialogue.
Elaine: "George, do you think that guy looks attractive."
George: "What? I don't want to answer that question."
Elaine: "It doesn't mean that you're gay, just because you say that another man looks handsome!"
George: "Yeah, but it doesn't help"
Well, it didn't help. I say that, in most of our cases, it is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Some of us may have been drug addicted, and these may fall under the "natural addiction progression" category, but it is my estimation that was a small percentage of those who were admitted. I pecieve that maybe 20% or so were addicted or dangerously close to it, but that percentage is a guess, and could be greater (or lesser).
And if we weren't addicted, don't YOU think it is unwise of them to be indoctrinating us with this self-view? In the long run, those of us who aren't addicts or alcoholics might act out that indoctrination as a self-fulfilling prophecy and become addicted, as I did to alcohol.
When I drank years after Straight, it was the indoctrination from Straight, "if you drink,you will die" that haunted me and compelled me to drink more. It was torment. I felt insane, saying, "but I'm NOT an alcoholic", yet there I was self-destructing like one. Mostly, I felt my parents disapproval and shame, though they hadn't found out yet as I had moved out of state.
The "disease" of alcholism is said to be progessive. I think it is. The difficult thing to know sometimes is if we are really addicted or not. We were mostly young people with hormones, teenagers, sometimes rebellious ones, when we were put in Straight/treatment. That does not equate chemical dependency. It is a travesty to be lied to in the manner we were because it DOES matter. But the Straight folks thought that the end (clean and sober kids) justified the means (misdiagnosis, exaggeration, and flat out lies). It doesn't, and I am confident that time has proven this out.
To exaggerate people's condition is to distort their views of reality. This is why many of us feel alienated from our peers, because they made us out to be freaky-deaky druggie rejects. It doesn't matter that I am sober today, an upstanding citizen of society, I still feel like a reject in the way I relate to the rest of society, and this is not logical, it is the result of systematic abuse in Straight.
There may have been people who meant well, but lies don't help you, ever. I hope this has answered some of your questions.