Yeah, this one will probably make a few people facepalm.
Oh boy :roll:
Basically, someone ruined an online "concert" by spamming a sound of a woman screaming. It sounded to me like she was acting, but everyone else was freaking out saying it sounded like a rape.
Naturally, that lead to two thoughts:
a) I'm damn sure someone here knows what the screams of torture are like :-? ugh
b) The fact that such a thought would occur to me, that shes an actor (or a 'faker') made me have to take a step back for a minute! I've only heard accounts of these places, through their own apologists and their survivors... and been an advocate for over 3 years now (another April has come...) and I'm thinking such a thought.
WTF?
I think its a sign of something bad when an activist starts getting mind fucked just by his or her own conscience and the accounts of others dealing with this. I'm not sure if this is PTSD c/o my own life for the past 10 or so years (which I'm not going to go into... you either know me personally, or you don't) or Staff Personality Disorder manifesting itself in a weird way.
Hell, that I'd think to ask what its like is kind of fucked up. I'm pretty sure you know it when you hear it, and I can imagine, but I try to tell my brain "NO, STOP IT" but it won't. Ugh.
