No, Anne Bonney. Actually, what happened is that I made several posts that were just me writing about how I felt at the end of that day. Then you popped right up and tossed your canned food up in the air and had a "taking it personally" problem with what I wrote. You want to toss your spaghettios and your non-shade-grown morning coffee in front of my bat, at least appreciate how neatly I sent them flying with very little spillage. You and some other posters started abusing me as a survivor of traumatic abuse who really does have some problems with some things and does, finally, thankfully, get "crazy pay". I have in fact been very poor at times. I have done hard labor in shitty weather without the means to dress properly. Abuse can really get a person down, witness your own nervous breakdown a while back. How would you have survived without your husband's money to support you? When things fall apart, people turn to family. That is how it has been for thousands of years, only these days, some of us are lucky to have any kind of family to offer any kind of support at all, not like some places and times, where your third cousins twice removed would have taken in you and your brother and his wife and their eight children should the need have arised. In reality, when I woke up to a lot of things over the last couple of years, I had a lot to rearrange in my relationships, including with my family. The chips fell. Thank goodness I get disability pay. That's real, and you don't endear yourself well to many people who read this to slam me for it. There are many people who read this board who were in Straight who are on disability.
Now, as for your yacht and your wealthy husband, someone else started throwing the "overprivileged" argument around to shut me up for anything I had to say. I really am really frustrated with the "whole system". Straight was never my whole problem. I do see myself as "overprivileged", and I also see myself as stupid. I think pretty much everyone who can't, who couldn't, build a house from materials on the land and live off the flora and fauna of the land, is stupid. That's not really accusatory, or it's extremely accusatory, but I don't see any point in getting too very personally upset about it. Which is in fact what you started doing the first post you made on this thread, making it all about YOU. Get it, Anne Bonney? I'm targeting you? No, YOU are targeting ME. You don't like what I say or how I say it. But unlike in Straight when you got to gang up on me and make me change the way I said things and personally ridicule me, you can't shut me up. Whereas I have made some good points about whether or not people have enough money to spend it differently, you have resorted to digging your teeth into my flesh as a survivor of the same abuse that also traumatized you, and ripping me up for being on disability. Nobody knows the whole picture of my life and what happened to my mind in Straight and why traumatic child abuse to the very real extent of torture really does have a severe effect. When we were restrained, we were very immediately in fear for our lives. We couldn't breathe and our bones were forced sometimes past the literal breaking point. This was done systematically to break us psychologically. It really does count as torture. There is a good reason a lot of survivors of this kind of abuse are on disability. And, I have really been amused at the simplicity of the argument regarding whether or not people on disability have a right to complain about the state of the union.
As for your other insults, I don't find them very clever. I don't really know if you have a yacht or not, but it's colorful and fun to bat around. I drive a spaceship, why don't you make fun of that? It would entertain people a lot more than your garden variety attack insults. I am no more "overprivileged" than RTP, our parents were in the same job/money/education strata, and I have probably actually had less money pass through my hands in my adult life than he. I mean, certainly a person could have a field day with how incompetent I am, but I try to take a kinder view of myself than I took a few years ago, because an unkind view doesn't really fix anything.
Some people know what I mean about the grotesque highways, and if they choose to respond with their own philosophies, at least we have begun on some common ground. Go back and read your initial response to my initial post, and then read some other people's responses. You make yourself sound very overprivileged. For a lot of people who live in your town, that morning cup of coffee at the coffee shop is not something they can factor into their budget. I've gotten "money from mom", but I've also been the kind of poor that chooses between band-aids and beans and tapes up gash wounds with a paper towel and masking tape. What can you get for 63 cents?
I suppose it was crass of all of us to discuss finances in public. [ hang heads in shame, or at least look sheepish ] But the people calling me "overprivileged"? Please. If things in this thread did turn into a rip roaring something or other, well, next time, don't come up to me when I'm swinging a bat. I really like batting things around. It's not my fault if you don't understand what I am saying. Some people do, and I don't care to write a literary and philosophical explication every time I post for those who don't. I could say that it was rude of you to respond to what I wrote the way you did in your first post. It was at the very least a severe misreading. Who am I to judge you? I'm the O.P. I wasn't talking to you, and I wasn't judging you. You were talking to yourself and judging yourself and wanting me to answer questions that I really think you should answer for yourself. I think it's very nice that you do, in fact, care about some of the issues raised in this thread. I think we've all had a nice time discussing it. Now I think we can all retire to search engines and see if we can introduce some serious, verifiable information into the topic.
Bygones. :em:
