Live at Last...

[misbehaver]

Live at Last... My name is Jason and I served six months at the Cincinnati Straight, Inc. facility during 1986. I fought every

day and was ultimately sent to a psych ward after I shimmied up a 30ft. I beam and threatened to jump.

I was also locked in an intake room for 18+/= days in an attempt to "break" me; I responded by shitting in my sock and swinging it wildly overhead. Har! Also, dubbed the "jedi master" thru my exploitatation of flourescent bulbs as swords. Yes, I was beaten down by these mindless zombies; but my specialty was the conversion of upper phasers to my "cause". I reached so many that the staff brought in "specialists" prepared to remove me to the Boston group...I got to them harder than then they ever got to me...


Dumb assed Question #1: why does it still hurt when I dream of this time in my life?


DAQ#2: will I ever be able to fully leave this episode in the past? how?


BTW, thanks to the people of this forum; I feel somewhat "at home"...


Jason

[LESTAT49203]

Re: Live at Last... Another Cincy survivor, cool!  Glad u found the place.  I was there from late May of 84 to Dec 85.  Sounds like we just missed each other.  Bet we know a lot of the same people though.  Was Joann Weaver still on staff while u were there?  How about Laura Crash or Nicki Upson?  Maybe Cathy Perisan, she was the group staff supervisor while I was there.  Was Gregory still serving those crappy dinners?  He was the caterer.  Well anyway hope to hear more from you.  Cincy84

[misbehaver]

Re: Live at Last... Yea Lestat, some of those "wimmen" were still in residence. Let me see, uck ya Joann Weaver with the lisp and beat up Camaro? All of a sudden she be a no show; people said she did herself.. Weaver wobble weak and she all fall down; sorry about the fat bitch's hard luck case...Har!


Oh yea, Darling Nicki; she was the resident soccer babe. Man, she held an apology over my ass so long; I thought I'd never eat a solid meal again. I bet if we hooked up today, well....


Nasty ass Laura Crash (and her gumbo Gimp Bro Andy); seems like every time she told her story about pissing in her pants; she got hotter and hottter. SICK. Bad complexion, too. Nasty....


Gregory's "meals" were far and few for me. I was on the "Misbehaver Policy" for so long that the only food I actually trusted came from from "decent" host homes and "loving" host sisters (and Mothers). hugs-n-rugs.


Take it easy, Bro Lestat.   Jason

[LESTAT49203]

Re: Live at Last... How about Tony Wheeldon, Tom Alsinio, Jim Henderson, Harry Douglas, Eileen Flemming, Mr Jerry Rushing, Mrs Boyd, Kristen Day, Heather Smith, Mike Rea, or Greg Corbin.  These are all people I remember to.  Do you know what happened to any of these people, or have any stories about them while you were there?  What was that about Joann?  I haven't heard about any of them since I left for Michigan.  Hey by the way do you have Yahoo Messenger?  

[misbehaver]

Re: Live at Last... Lestat, yep there was a rumour that lil' Joann comitted suicide. (she just disappeared, i dunno...)

Also, many of the people you mentioned were still at the Funhouse, if I remember that little boy Harry used to like to kick the @#%$ outta me w/his cowboy boots (bad case of Little/Big Man complex) and Mike Rea was funny as hell; after he fell to the "dark side". I knew many of the others, but if ya wanna batch of war stories, ya gotta buy the beers! Are ya still in the area?


Thinking back, most of the techniques used against me were ill-conceived and futile. Take the belt loop grasp: With one hand out of play, I usually let gravity take us down (while the poor phaser's other arm is trying to break the fall), always making sure that I fell on THEM. After a while, I was off the belt loop and just surrounded by an entourage of big dudes. Kinda felt like da Prez.


I had only one rule: Never screw around at the host home. Period. This usually meant that I was treated with marginal humanity and often was well received, even liked. This drove the poor phasers nuts to see me run so Hot and Cold. When I did write an MI, it was usually because I sensed weakness or doubt in my oldcomer and wanted to help them "see the light". More than a few did...


My "tour of duty" came to an abrupt end after I heard that I was going to Boston. After all my hard work, they wanted a divorce! Couldn't let that happen. So, while lined up at the feeding window, I clamped onto one of the I beams and Spider-Man like to da rafters. I was laughing madly and spitting at people, threatening to jump. Har! not likely. Those silly fucks were following me around with matresses; it was a beautifully choreographed exit. Once I spotted the cops and EMTs, I knew victory was mine. 6 weeks later I was outta the psych ward (they decided i wasn't nuts, just determined) and back in the World.


Ya know, the worst thing is realizing that this evil is still being perpetrated at the very same building...Jason  

Edited by: misbehaver at: 11/1/01 11:25:39 am

[LESTAT49203]

Re: Live at Last... @#%$ I'd love to buy the beers, but unforntunately I'am back in Michigan now.  I was a court ordered and not allowed back to the state without going to jail or finishing Straight.  If I would have realized back then, that I would have been out of jail alot sooner than I got out of Straight, I definitly would have picked jail. lol  It was kinda like from the movie "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest"  With Jack Nicholson.  Jack thought it would be easier serving his time out in a psyc ward instead of prison and the next thing ya know the poor guy gets a lobotomy.  Well that kinda happened to me.  Except my lobotomy was a brainwashing.  Start out thinking "I'll just go along to get out of here", then the next thing ya know BAM!  Iam gone and some jackass flapping his arms around like a idiot and singing songs like Zippity Do Da is sitting in my chair. lol  I still get can't believe it.  Seems like it happened to another person or something.  Anyway.  I think maybe you have Harry mixed up with Phil Corben.  Phil was a short guy who liked to were those Cowboy boots.  Harry was a huge Colored guy. (sorry I don't know whats politically correct)  He was my newcomer when he first came in the program and super cool.  I heard he had gone on trainee after I left.  What about the Yahoo Instant Messenger?  Do you have it?  We can bullshit online with it.  Leave your email address if you want and I can send it to you.  Or if you already have it my ID is lestat49203    

[misbehaver]

Re: Live at Last... you're right, Lestat. I mixed up coolass,calm Harry with that little shitbird Phil. What a punk...


Yea, I've got the Yahoo Messenger, lets wrap this @#%$ up... I'm just not into badmouthing people who aren't around to defend their positions. I'll make an exception in this case. Catcha on the Yahoo.. Jason

[ramprato]

welcome Just Wanted to say Jason,


Glad you found these sites. I was in Cincinnati around the same time that Lestat was in, so our path's never crossed, I also live in Michigan. You sound like a determined person and that's a great strength to have when dealing with a bunch of nutcakes (staff) in a Mind Rape Mill. I "graduate", I put the word "graduated in quotations because I no longer recognize its significance.


I hope your healing today and have a better outlook at life. I prey that they didn't break you to too bad, and that you can move on despite them. Keep on posting, I look forward to them.......


If you want to talk my email address is [email protected]

[misbehaver]

Re: welcome thanks, Ken. I kinda stumbled upon this site; glad I did. I realize my above postings may seem sick or twisted, but I don't talk about Straight much and when I do, I just purge as many thoughts and images as possible. I also recognize this forum is not my personal dumping ground, this will be reflected in future posts.


As far as being "broken", I think not. I'm quite certain I did much more self-inflicted damage following Straight.

I must admit, I do take pride in the fact that I never ran away or bowed to those freakin lepers. Funny thing,

when I was sent to my OWN home as a newcomer it only strengthened my resolve to never surrender. Jason

[StraightIncAlumni]

Re: Live at Last... Hi Jason

I too was in Cincinnati in fact one of the originals that flew up from St. Pete in January 1982.  7th Steped about 11 months after we came up.

Tom had replied about Gregory's crappy food.  It was a feast compared to the stuff we were given in St. Petersburg.  Anyway glad you found the group, I just found it today but run another message board called Straight Inc. Alumni

You can e-mail me at [email protected] if you want.


Don

[doc2714]

Re: Live at Last... Jason, glad you found this site. I can definitely relate to the constant fighting. I was at Cincy Straight 2+ years between cop-outs and was on first phase for about two years. Copped out twice and was finally KICKED out by Dave Crock (Exec.Staff) for causing a riot of misbehavers. Since Straight I have had several prison stays with the Indiana Dept. of Corrections and numerous mental hospital visits, but somehow I have stuffed it all down for about ten years now and stayed out of trouble. However, it is starting to unravel now (since I found; http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Straight_Inc_Alumni)'>groups.yahoo.com/group/St...nc_Alumni) all the rage is right there inside still after almost 17 years. I snapped today and got into a knock down drag out fight with some guy I didnt even know! I make it a point NEVER to fight, in fact, I haven't physically fought since Straight...except today. Do you know the rage I am talking about man? That link I mentioned above has helped me to realize that it wasn't me that thought the program was criminally WRONG in the way they treated all of us. And its not just the "losers", cop-outs, pull offs, etc., many there are graduates and some were on various levels of staff, but for the most part we all agree that Straight was hell. A guy I met at that site I.M.ed me about you (I don't come here too often) and thinks you might be able to help me deal with the @#%$ I am going through right now. I would like to say that it is in no way a Pro-Straight site, in fact I can think of nobody there (at least not posting) who is Pro-Straight. I would like to send a warm invite to you and anyone in the future who may read this, to come, sign up, and get involved...No matter WHAT your point of view is. Yeah, that is the ONLY bad thing about it in my opinion, you gotta sign up! The only requirement for membership is that you be a former client of Straight, Inc.(any branch). I would love to meet some more former Straightlings! Until next time,

LoveYa!

DOC

If you are a parent of a kid which you are considering placing in a coercive behavior modification center or a kid in such a place, please don't spend another day in your solitary hell. Call me at (941)761-3153 lets talk, we can discuss the consequences and the alternatives to such a program.

[doc2714]

Re: Live at Last... Also,

at the site mentioned in the above post they dont bleep out the profanity like they do here, and of course it is NEVER censored in any way. We were censored too long at straight!

DOC

[misbehaver]

Hey, Doc... I know the rage, it used to be my constant companion. Besides drugs and booze, it was (and still is) one of the few constants in my life. I dunno about being able to help you, but I sure can relate to most of the $HIT that you described. It's been cool finding this forum and talking with others like you and Lestat, but I'm not so sure I could/would enjoy chatting with alumni members who had ANYTHING positive to say about the program.


BTW, I thought I was a hard case, but two fuking years on 1st phase...Man, that's real time endurance. You outta go out on one of my "survival" trips, you'd have no problem dealing with deprivation. I do these "trips" to keep me from coming unglued in this artificial environment most people enjoy with great comfort. I don't.

The last time was a weeklong "swamp romp" in the Tensaw Delta in AL. I usually just pay off a local landowner and go native. I like to think of it as a "soul cleanse". You can email me if you want: [email protected]

Take it easy, Bro Doc, Jason.

[2dogs2]

the other site Jason, I am a member of the other site too. I think you would at least get a kick out of it.  100 % of the members hated Straight , A few try to remember good friends, but there are some who just need to be @#%$ with and I could sure use a hand!  (lol)     2-DOGS

[2dogs2]

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