Well, I don't really believe in meds. And I know that plenty of people will say "but what about diabetes? You'll deny a diabetic his insulin?". Well I don't really care about any disorder other than bipolar, cuz well that's what I have. And I just haven't bothered with meds. Why? I guess it's because I was first exposed to meds at BCA. I remember seeing a kid struggling to make it from his bed to the shower on my second day there. I said, "what's wrong man?" He said, "last week they had me on three meds. now I'm on 4. I feel like a fucking zombie." He listed them, told me what they were for, and from then on the thought of meds just horrified me.
I just do my thing man, that's my treatment. Someone said it earlier, and I agree, keeping a close circle of friends that I trust around me is key. As long as they can keep my smiling, well that's a start right? And I keep focused on something, usually my grades, or some new sport or something like that. Just picked up surfing a few months ago.
When the depression hits nothing works better than clearing my mind. Like I said, surfing, or smoking a lot of weed helps too.
I don't know, they say that my success means I'm not maladaptive, so I couldn't truly have a disorder. But truthfully, I've never found anything that works as a treatment. I can make the pain go away, but that's what bipolar is to me. I always know it's going to come back. No matter how happy I become, I know it's waiting for me around the corner.
