As I sit behind these walls, I think of my family at home. I picture them around the table I know so well having Thanksgiving dinner without me. I'm not sure where it all went wrong, I don't know how to make it all better? I feel helpless, I feel unwanted, I feel unloved. My whole life I felt as though nobody cares, now I know nobody cares. The longer I am away from you, the more I hate you. All I ever wanted to be was close to you. Do you remember when I was little, you tried telling me someday when you get to be all grown up you will leave home. Do you remember me saying in all seriousness, I will never leave home Daddy!!!! What happened Mom and Dad? Why did you abandon me when I needed you most? Why don't you believe me when I tell you what they do to us here? Do you think I deserve to be treated this way? Do you care that days go by 20 times slower for me then they do for you? When can I come home? What else can I possibly work on??? It's the same shit everyday here, so how can I prove to you that I will make better decisions in my life from here on out?
This was me.........years ago. Been free for a while, but it seems like only yesterday.
