especially for Marshall, Greg,

[Antigen]

On 2005-09-23 04:57:00, Ft. Lauderdale wrote:

"Now you'll probably say I should call for funding from Dupont.  Who ever he is. :grin: "

Such proud ignorance. You think you know all about this little cult of yours. But I think you probably sense, on some level, that a little factual investigation might cause your beliefs about it to disintegrate.

Or are you just a bald faced liar; pretending to not know the whole story? It's really hard to tell sometimes.

Give me the youth, and Germany will rule the world.
--Hitler

[Ft. Lauderdale]

I think the term is "Bold face" although I am loosing my hair.  

I'm not amazed that your so BOLD to ask.

Proud ignorance thats an interesting term "one should possibly reflect on that one their own self"... Honey.


The words you seem to obsess on the most =
cult, Dupont, Synonon, Korean mind control,
strip search, oh well thats all I can think of for now. :grin:

[Ft. Lauderdale]

Oh yeah I forgot ...you are the expert on all and everything...oh yeah you never even went to the Seed . Did you?

You keep trying to portray that you have...but ...NOT..... :grin:

[Anonymous]

for christ's sake, would you two just get a room, and get it over with

[Antigen]

::puke::

You don't get everything you want. A dictatorship would be a lot
easier.
--GW Büsh, Governor of Texas. Governing Magazine, 7/98

[Thom]

On 2005-09-23 08:08:00, Antigen wrote:

" ::boohoo::

[SMiamiPimp]

John,

Thanks for the posts! I agree with your description of the devastation.

[NOT12NOW]

Dear John,
The first time I noticed that a staff member was on this site (you) I was really excited. I read your post and all the posts that follow carefully.  When I was done I added my own thoughts.  

The other day I logged on and saw a new thread started by john underwood again, and again many posts in response followed it.  I started to read the thread but was surprised to find it didn?t engage me.   You just say the same shit over and over.  Have you read anything anyone has written here?  

I guess I just don?t care anymore if anyone on the staff ever ?gets it.?  I don?t have to care. I survived your abuse.  The long list of dead doesn?t scare me anymore.   I know what it means to be a seed success, after all I used to be one, and quite honestly I?d rather be dead than still be a seed drone.

I care about understanding what happened to me so I can be free of it.  I care about the other brave people sorting it out on this site.  I care about stopping other programs that grew out of the seed so no other scared twelve-year-old goes through what I did.  I long to apologize to my newcomer. And I don?t need you to do any of those things.  

The only reason for you to accept the fact that you damaging some scared kids is to heal yourself.  
Good luck finding you heart.

[Antigen]

On 2005-11-21 11:03:00, NOT12NOW wrote:

 I know what it means to be a seed success, after all I used to be one, and quite honestly I?d rather be dead than still be a seed drone.

I hear ya! I remember thinking that when I first ran from home cause I had gotten wind that my mom was trying to put me in the Program. And, again, when I finally escaped two years later. To some extent, I believed the propaganda about turning into a pathetic junkie if I broke w/ the Program. But I had decided it was worth it. The horror stories were, after all, an unknown. I couldn't explain it to anybody what was so awful that I felt the need to go and get myself lost in the world. But the urge was overwhelmingly strong, none the lese.

Some times the devil that you know is so unbearably horrible that the devil that ya' don't know starts looking pretty damned good!

Thank GOD it was all just fear mongering! Here I am, 20 odd years later, stubornly happy, healthy and successful despite having rejected the Program in total.

If you believe that people cannot be trusted to govern themselves,
then can they be trusted to govern others?
 
--Thomas Jefferson