guess I'm just a baby

[Anonymous]

I hate CEDU/RMA. I do blame it for my ongoing depression. I was traumitized permanently.

I don't care whether you believe me or not. I know it is the truth. I hurt so much because of myself, I get honest with myself like I was sitting across in a rap. I can't help it...I thrive on telling myslf I'm a failure. But it isn't really thriving that I do. I feel like the world expects something impossible of me.

the world is shit and we are all maggots that crawl on it...and then there are all the "butterfly thoughts" that cause me to remember the "good" times in that hellhole.

Because of my thinking- I unthankfully was introduced to under bona fide psychological extremity. My confidence is shot...and don't give me that white, middle class male displacement bullshit. I do see the faces of counselors still and hear the shrill voices sometimes when I try to sleep at night. It truly will never be good enough...I will not be happy living this life where I am in the past all the time.


The past is past, it can touch me not?!!!!
FUCK THOSE LIES.
FUCK everything about BM and fuck the world for making us rebellious in the first place. I hate CEDU/RMA.

[TheSummitGives]

You're not a baby! You are, in fact, a butterfly! You are in your cocoon of anger and despair right now, but if you use the tools that you know will work, you can transform and fly above it all! Think back to your Dreams! Build your castle in the sky!

[Anonymous]

On 2005-09-09 11:16:00, TheSummitGives wrote:

"You're not a baby! You are, in fact, a butterfly! You are in your cocoon of anger and despair right now, but if you use the tools that you know will work, you can transform and fly above it all! Think back to your Dreams! Build your castle in the sky!



"

Jesus, shut the fuck up. What's the deal with you?! Don't you get it? Don't you get that what happened there was in fact NOT a good thing. The things that happened there were traumatic. They disrupted people's lives and forever changed them. Some for the good, yes. But more for the bad. I don't like you. I don't like your views on what happened in Idaho and I want you to stop fucking talking. If I were in your presence I would smack the fucking shit out of you. Stop trying to push your wrong views on people. They feel how they feel and you shouldn't try to change that. So SHUT THE FUCK UP. (and oh yeah eat shit you cock sucking mother fucker)

[Anonymous]

Don't you notice, Anon (I means the recent "shut- the-fuck-up" anon with his panties all in a bunch) that "THeSummitGives"'s post sound satirical of the Summit---you know, like on Saturday Night Live or something?

Kind of like Dr. Fucktard-satire about the therapeutic boarding schools in fact.

But the question is, Anon, are your posts in response to "TheSummitGives" serious or just a satire of some of the temper-tantrums that other posters have engaged in on this site when somebody dares to say something positive about CEDU?

[Anonymous]

Yeah, I've always gotten the impression that TheSummitGives was being ironic when he/she posted. Nobody could say that kind of stuff and be serious about it.

[Anonymous]

well it's very strange the responses elicited by my short rant. When I read the reply from "summit gives", i thought jesus..these people really believe...but maybe it is toungue in cheek.

But we know...there are the fantatics.

[Anonymous]

This "TheSummitGives" poster is just one long series of predictable comments--comments as they would be if one were doing a satire of "The Summit".

Very well done in fact---since after all, all things in the world, good or bad can be satirized---that is the nature of human imperfection.

Hey---"The SummitGives"---give us some more, what's your take--really---on the CEDU experience?

Are you ambivalent so you're playing here---did you hate it, so you're making fun of it---did you really get something out of it, but feel that the only way to talk about it on a site like this is to make fun of it.

Get real "The SummitGives" or at least give us something more to work with to try to understand "where you're coming from".

Let's hear more.

[Anonymous]

On 2005-09-10 17:07:00, Anonymous wrote:

"This "TheSummitGives" poster is just one long series of predictable comments--comments as they would be if one were doing a satire of "The Summit".



Very well done in fact---since after all, all things in the world, good or bad can be satirized---that is the nature of human imperfection.



Hey---"The SummitGives"---give us some more, what's your take--really---on the CEDU experience?



Are you ambivalent so you're playing here---did you hate it, so you're making fun of it---did you really get something out of it, but feel that the only way to talk about it on a site like this is to make fun of it.



Get real "The SummitGives" or at least give us something more to work with to try to understand "where you're coming from".



Let's hear more. "

Any halfway decent satirist rarely breaks character. It ruins the gag.

Besides, all of CEDU just SCREAMS to be made fun of, don't you think? And anyone who still has issues with the school needs to learn how to laugh at their pain. That has helped me through many hard times. The darker, more forbidden the tragedy, (like the death of a family member or loved one), the more it needs to be made fun of once some distance is gotten. (When my cat died, which may seem like a nothing loss to some people, but was a huge, heartbreaking tragedy to me, because he was my best bud, I started cracking jokes that I was going to stuff him and put him on a plank with wheels so I could pull him around with me.)

Why do you think people come up with space shuttle or 9/11 jokes? Because it's dark and deals with painful stuff. Much more painful than any piddly stuff we went through at the CEDU schools. So learn to laugh a little.

Besides, it's an even funnier joke if SummitGives was serious and we thought he/she was joking, so it's funny either way at this point.

How many rap facilitators does it take to screw in a light bulb? Three. One to screw it in, and two to sit and scream "That's riiiight!!" at it.

I made that one up while at school. It's a stupid joke, I know. But it still made my friends and I laugh.

[Anonymous]

About tragedy and humor.

When my mom died unexpectedly, it was on the Friday before the weekend when Mother's Day occurred---a very busy weekend for florists.

My employers, trying to do a nice thing, sent flowers to the funeral home where my mom was, but, in one of those terrible mistakes that happens when everyone is busy, the flowers arrived at the funderal home with a card that mistakenly said "Happy Mother's Day".  

Although we all loved my mother, we've had some laughs over that one---even though friends who have less capacity for humor tell me that they would want to sue over this error, get somebody fired, etc.

Well, life would be pretty barren without humor, that's all I've got to say.  

And if "The SummitGives" keeps on being as funny as he is---regardless of his attitude about CEDU, well in my books he's alright.  

Cuz, whether you got a lot out of CEDU or nothing at all, I'm willing to bet that there were moments in your time there that were memorable and even hysterically funny--and why shouldn't you remember them with a smile even if you have problems with the rest of the program