So I hear BCA is up and running again. I hear some of the old kids are back, it's too bad really. I also see by the web site that the same manipulative, lieing, bastards are running the place. The whole thing still makes me sick to be honest. Is Ariel working there again? I can't imagine how La would be able to keep her finger on the staff with out her henchmen makeing them pay. At the same time I'm not sure how they could get around such indescretion as sleeping with students.
So dcosta, were they sleeping together before the school closed? Or did you just get the lucky premeir showing. (oh, sorry, I just grossed myself out).
Do you keep in touch with any of the old kids? How are they doing? I think about it alot, ya know the mistakes I made and the lengths I was pushed to. How the abuse believe it or not was as bad for some of us staff as it was for the kids. I was pushed and punished when I tried to stand up for myself or the kids who weren't Ariels pets. The hours I spent being yelled at for "keeping score" when I generally had no idea what they were talking about, the dirty looks and threats. I'm not sure why but I'm still very effected by it all. I don't trust anyone anymore, and would rather be a shut in than open up or get out. I guess that's what I get for opening up, letting down walls and trusting at BCA. I hope and pray that I didn't cause or inflict the same pain for others. If I did or rather I'm sure I did, and so I senceirley appologize. I know it doesn't do any good now, but I am sorry. It was all so hard to see at the time. The crap got so thick and I never knew who to trust, who was being real and who was going to twist the knife. It's unreal the pressure and stress the staff are forced to endure. Unfortunateley, it gets passed on. I actually only had a few weeks left before my planned departure. I couldn't take it anymore and I didn't like who I was being changed into.
I guess I'm rambling, but for now it feels good to get it out.
costa and any other kids that were there when it closed, how are you, really? Were there any good times? Any decent staff? Any chance you'll be showing at the Arab show in scottsdale this year?
