I heard about this site. I've been clean since 1981. Tough measures were taken for tough-ass stuff. Some staff went overboard. Buttimer? No way. Wake up. You must be talking about M. Newton et.al. Dennis Buttimer comforted me, my Mother and my sister when my Father died. He dealt very caringly with one of my phasers when it was learned that he was molested by his own Mother, he confronted a belitltling Father for his rotten attitude in a Parent Rap and he gave me hope when I individually broke down and told him what a piece of shit I felt like from sticking needles in myself, etc. He wasn't perfect, but who is? I thought for the most part he was a good guy doing a hard-ass job. Would YOU have wanted to deal with some of US?
I'm amazed at how so many of you guys re-injure yourselves, particularly "Botched Programming" by going over the same stuff and maintaining this dark hole in yourselves. The bitterness and mental masturbation about the negatives can't be really doing you any good. Say what you will but it's time to move on. For me, I had to go to meetings, true, but I also had to get some therapy and freaking let go. Focus on who you want, but ultimately for peace you have to look at yourself.
For any of you that stood by me in my tears, "pity parties," and self-loathing, I thank you. I pray for all of us who have dealt with the scourge of addiction. Enough is enough. JD