In Straight I was a bundle of nerves, stomach swirling, paranoid and full of fear for 1 year and 10 months. On 5th phase trainee, I rarely had to go to 5th phase rap. But when I did, I felt horrified. I managed to hide those feelings, because feeling that way meant I was full of shit and going to suffer concequences. I was going along doing what I thought was right, but the place nerve racked me because of the way it was.
Because of that straight experience, I have mastered the art hiding and dealing with fear.
I can calmly ride through situations that bring most other people trembling to their knees.