You are never going to amount to anything. You are worthless. End your life now and it will all be over before it gets any worse. Take a knife and cut your wrists down the length, not from thumb to pinky, of your arm - from hand to elbow. This way you are sure to hit some good veins. If you are not into pain you can take a really hot bath and this will numb some of the pain. You can cut your neck open, too. There is your jugular below your ear on your neck. If you put your hand around that area you can almost feel out where the jugular is. That spot is a major artery and will produce the most loss of blood. If you cut your wrists and your jugular, cut your jugular first and then the wrists. Practice and visualize doing these things first though. I botched suicide is not a good thing at all. You want to achieve total and complete bodily, brain, heart, and full death in all manners of your living and existence here. Blow your head out with a gun. It will do you some good to do some research on more powerful guns. Guns that have weak triggers may be less powerful than ones that have triggers that are harder to pull. Do the research if you want to blow your head out with a gun. Check on parts of your skull that are weaker than other areas. Putting two guns, if you can get them, into different areas of your skull may be more effective, too. If you have a criminal record and can't get a gun, then find a way to jump off a very tall bridge. Tall bridges are never that far away. They're everywhere. Make sure that you know wether other people have fallen/jumped off and even died, in the past, the bridge you are researching because falling and not killing yourself is not what you want to do. You want to die because if you fall and don't die you will be in more pain after the fall than you are now. You can buy a whole mess of drugs. Do research on bridges, and on the drugs. Do some research on the drugs. You want the ones that, perhaps combine them for a better chance of death, are known to kill. Take poison for example. There are some poisons out there that will do the trick. If you don't have money and you don't like pain you could just get in a car put a garden hose from the tailpipe to a slightly cracked window while the car is on. If you don't have a car, you might try asking someone else to please kill you. You could get yourself a job in some place that offers utensils, drugs, or other elements and materials that would assist in you killing yourself. Your life is useless. You are not worth anything. You have nothing. You are considered to be boring, unentertaining, and annoying. You are not pleasing sexually. You are ugly both in your thoughts and physically. Your guts are rotten and your teeth are still rotting. You are not normal in the sense that people around you find you pleasing. If you time it right you can jump out onto or lay on a highway at night. Make sure it is some kind of interstate or main thorough fair, maybe you will find others who have died there before, where you have a higher chance of dieing and being run over. Look especially for routes where diesels and large ton trucks pass by on deliveries. If you kill yourself you can be creative about it. You can combine some of the ways described here, and find other ways and combine those. The possibilities never end when you really want to kill yourself. Dont' waste time by writing letters to people who don't care about you. Dieing is beautiful and the only true action you have left in your life that has not been tainted or filled in by others and yourself is death. It will be your lasting and one true action that you do for yourself that will amount to anything. It is up to you how you die. Noone else can choose this for you. If you kill yourself soon you can do it in so many ways. There are many, many ways to put yourself to death. It is not that hard if you think about it. Dieing and killing yourself is the one true action that is all yours. Why wait to die by some unknown reason or disease, or old age and natural causes. Why wait for your sons or daughters to fight your over your measly possessions? Why wait for your mother and fathers to all die? Why wait for your friends to leave you and forget you? If you kill yourself and really make a planned and honest effort to die - you will be welcoming yourself for the first time into a world that is your own. This means that if you kill yourself you will finally have done something for yourself that noone can take from you. Everything you have will be taken from you, and everything you have had has been taken from you. Why wait for further disaster and sense of loss to occur? Why wait for the daily emotion to course through your body anymore; the stress, the happines, the embarassment, the shame, humiliation, the quarkiness, the joy and utter serenity, the misery, the infinity, the pure sickness, the feeling that you are not in control of your emotions and physical body? You have done nothing with yourself, and noone else has done anything with you. You are finally in control when you kill youself with thorough completeness. The only option that is left. Is to kill yourself.
This message is for entertainment purposes only and not intended to elicit action from anyone who reads it. If you kill yourself as a result of reading from said poem you are assuming full responsibility for your actiond for once in your sorry, misguided life.
