I didn't go to public school, I wanted to go to public school,
but there were black and poor people in the public school
sadly this is completly true, my parents are fun folks
don't judge me by them!
this was the reason I was going to private school when we lived in the U.S., overseas I couldn't go to the public schools.
I didn’t mean to sound as harsh as I did with the above
I honestly think that there is so much good and beauty in the world that people, especially young people, are way too trusting.
I’ve been through a couple existential crisis as this point and have made some peace with the sadder aspects of life, some of which I had the misfortune to experience
Therefore, I’ve become pretty factual about reality and it doesn’t bother me as much,
like I said I think I’ve been through a grieving process with it and made some peace
On another note, I started thinking about trauma and grief and their after effects in relation to PV survivors.
A lot of the girls going into PV did not seem to be dealing with chemical depression but instead with the after effects of real trauma and grief.
PV of course is the most horrific excuse for grief and trauma therapy one could imagine short of perhaps an actual POW or prison camp, where they don’t have to make any pretenses at not torturing people.
i.e. they can bury you in the backyard .
All survivors out of PV are now dealing with the after effects of trauma.
I started researching grief therapy online and there was a lot of good stuff.
I came to the conclusion that grief counseling might be better for the kids going into PV then well abusing them horrifically and stressing them out past the point of all sanity.
There was a lot of focus on not traumatizing the trauma patients, oh well too late for that in PV people.
I also think that a lot of people try to run away from their feelings of grief because the sadness and anger scares them.
I say this from how I handled the grief from what I had experienced
I think this leads to things like drug use, anorexia and basically just weird avoidance distraction things. The pain is still really there though so it makes people a bit nutty.
The grief counseling information mentioned what I ended up figuring out with it, basically the grief isn’t going to kill you and you can’t run away from it so its better just to let yourself grieve because then you feel a lot better and it does eventually more or less go away.
Dealing with grief and trauma is a very real thing and it follows specific normal patterns
I have seen these patterns, actually while they were being abused horrifically, so I’ve really seen them.
It was nice in the reading to have the therapeutic community make something almost like sense or even scientific observation. wow
A good grief/ trauma counselor, and I would be very careful, might be a good idea out of PV.
I also think anti depressant medications are interesting in relation to those dealing with the after effects of trauma/ abuse/ death of a love one etc.
I don’t think there are really any distinctions made between chemical depression and the after effects of trauma when prescribing them.
It would seem that if chemical depression was a medical problem, within which the persons body doesn’t regulate chemicals properly, and grief is not a medical problem but something caused by trauma, giving out the same drugs for both things doesn’t really make sense.
I have taken Zoloft and Paxil and I noticed that they did absolutely nothing for me.
I didn’t feel any different whatsoever then when I wasn’t on them.
They did do some slight physical things, i.e. Zoloft made my head a bit buzzy depending on how much I had eaten and what time of day it was, and I think Paxil made me tired but as far as how I felt emotionally they did absolutely nothing.
And I mean nothing, I felt exactly the same as I had before I had started taking them.
Of course i had no grief or trauma counseling, my trauma counseling was a horrific brutal prison camp. After getting out of PV it was almost as callous and abusive.
So anyway I was thinking about how best to deal with the after effects of PV so as survivors could have better lives, which led to researching grief counseling which led to the above. I guess don’t let nasty people around you tell you that your not going through something and that grieving isn’t normal, this was a big part the trauma/grief therapy reading, out of PV your going to be going through the after effects of trauma.
